I need to live!!!
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Join Date: Jul 2004
Location: Connecticut
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I need to live!!!
Well here I am, a 40 year old woman with a wonderful husband, living a life I never dreamed possible and I will not let some little white pill take this away from me. I grew up very very poor in apartments with the company of many many roaches and my mother worked all the time just to keep food on the table. My father didnt know who I was or cared who I was for that matter. He did want me dead and he made sure I knew that. I didnt have many friends and school was the most difficult place for me to be. Its no wonder I love popping my Vicodine, Percocet,Oxi's, etc. Escape is so much easier than dealing with reality. Well I am not about to go and live my life like before, I want to keep my lifestyle I have now, I have a wonderful husband, great freinds and a lovely home. I am trying very hard to wean myself off of this junk after a few years now. I was up to 15 pills a day and almost lost everything, now I am down to like 7 to 8 pills a day and I hope to keep continuing weining myself off.
I look to all of you for some strength and courage (as I hope to be able to pass on to you as well). My husband is a wonderful man, but he dosnt seem to understand what it is I am going through. I would very much love to meet people who understand my situation. I am afraid to go to NA meetings because I tried Group therapy years ago and it did not work at all. These past few days here I have found a little extra peace. Please write to me and share your experience and words.
Thanks
Debby
I look to all of you for some strength and courage (as I hope to be able to pass on to you as well). My husband is a wonderful man, but he dosnt seem to understand what it is I am going through. I would very much love to meet people who understand my situation. I am afraid to go to NA meetings because I tried Group therapy years ago and it did not work at all. These past few days here I have found a little extra peace. Please write to me and share your experience and words.
Thanks
Debby
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Join Date: Nov 2003
Location: Charlottesville, Va
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Im Moontime and I'm an addict. I am also a proud member of Narcotics Anonymous and we aren't group therapy. What we do is help each other stay clean. If that's what you want, like I did, you might give NA a try. We all have problems, we share, then we listen to experience, strength and hope by the more experienced member. We don't pick up no matter what. I hope you really give it a shot before you cut it off. Keep Coming Back!
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Join Date: May 2003
Location: El Paso, Tx
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Hi and welcome!
Congratulations on your desire to seek out recovery. Your right, non-addicts don't understand. So it's normal for hubby not to get it. Though they try, they just don't understand. I hope you will visit our NA and Substance abuse forums. NA is a wonderful program that can help if you give it a fighting chance.
In the meantime, keep posting, and keep coming back. Your not alone here with this and there will be many just like you along to offer their experiance, strength and hope, of beating this addiction.
Congratulations on your desire to seek out recovery. Your right, non-addicts don't understand. So it's normal for hubby not to get it. Though they try, they just don't understand. I hope you will visit our NA and Substance abuse forums. NA is a wonderful program that can help if you give it a fighting chance.
In the meantime, keep posting, and keep coming back. Your not alone here with this and there will be many just like you along to offer their experiance, strength and hope, of beating this addiction.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
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Hi Debby,
I'm so glad you found us! Many of us addicts find that our loved ones don't understand at all what we are going through. My husband is a great guy too, but he doesn't understand much about addiction. That's why it's so good to come to a place like this where we can lean on each other and learn from each other.
Hang around and keep posting.
Love, Anna
I'm so glad you found us! Many of us addicts find that our loved ones don't understand at all what we are going through. My husband is a great guy too, but he doesn't understand much about addiction. That's why it's so good to come to a place like this where we can lean on each other and learn from each other.
Hang around and keep posting.
Love, Anna
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Life Is Short
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((((((Debby)))))) Smiling at you girl, and so happy you found sober recovery.
Boy our pasts can have such an impact on us, drag us down. You know the people that have done or said not so nice things to us, are or where the one's with the problem, have you ever thought of that? So leave it with them.
You know what, there's a reason it's called the PAST, that's where it belongs, and boy oh boy I'm working on that one also Debby, leaving it back there, so come on girl, grab my hand and learn to do it with me.
It's better to finally face reality, and get on with your life, let that husband of your's love you. A friend of mine lately keeps reminding me what year it is...so guess what Debby I'll remind you also, it's 2004, we have enough problems today, to deal with right?
I'm wishing you the best on your recovery, start living ((((Debby))))
Love and hugs.....Denise
Boy our pasts can have such an impact on us, drag us down. You know the people that have done or said not so nice things to us, are or where the one's with the problem, have you ever thought of that? So leave it with them.
You know what, there's a reason it's called the PAST, that's where it belongs, and boy oh boy I'm working on that one also Debby, leaving it back there, so come on girl, grab my hand and learn to do it with me.
Escape is so much easier than dealing with reality.
I'm wishing you the best on your recovery, start living ((((Debby))))
Love and hugs.....Denise
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