Nervous about the weekend
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Nervous about the weekend
Last night I went through old posts. I tried to quit last march. Actually that's bull. I downloaded the app last march and went 2 days then 3 days then none of u heard from me again. It is quite a reality check to read those posts. I was obviously lost, and drunk. I really jumped into this group this time around. I am going to see my medicine woman tomorrow for a two hour healing session. I'm hoping that helps me for the weekend. I screwed up this time around at day 14. With day 14 fast approaching, anxiety is growing inside of me. I want this so bad I can taste it. The freedom, the future, the unknown. Over 14 days sober? What is that like? I hope I can start being of help to others. I hope I can start focusing on others instead of me. Or am I supposed to stay selfishly working on me and talking about me for now? I'm not ready to do step work yet. I'm not ready to attend a meeting. I am ready to stay sober and it is very important I concentrate on that for the upcoming weekend. All of my strength, I need all of it. Thanks for listening.
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Hey Country girl, congratulations on your sober time!
Try and remember that you aren't destined to repeat the mistakes of old.
Maybe try and focus on what went wrong for you last time, and how you think you could avoid those same mistakes looking forward?
Good luck!
Try and remember that you aren't destined to repeat the mistakes of old.
Maybe try and focus on what went wrong for you last time, and how you think you could avoid those same mistakes looking forward?
Good luck!
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countrygirl you are doing well. Right now you need to focus on you and your sobriety, you can't offer a lifeboat to others until you are strong and sure about yourself. Have you got your own back for this weekend? Have you got a plan which includes your own enjoyment, your own nourishment for body and soul and your own sobriety?
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I agree with Marcher. Don't put a lot of heavy expectations on yourself--just focus on your own sobriety. You need nurturing yourself right now.
When the time comes to help others, obvious opportunities will present themselves. Meanwhile, there's no need to force anything.
When the time comes to help others, obvious opportunities will present themselves. Meanwhile, there's no need to force anything.
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I wish I could take one of you with some time under your belt and have you go everywhere with me until Monday morning. Lol. Maybe this weekend would be a good time to try a meeting. What do you all think?
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Originally Posted by countrygirl2014 
I wish I could take one of you with some time under your belt and have you go everywhere with me until Monday morning. Lol. Maybe this weekend would be a good time to try a meeting. What do you all think?
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