I made it through day 3!!!
Blood Countess
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I made it through day 3!!!
I just wanted to tell people that I got through day 3!!
Maybe it's not a big thing... but it's big to me. Because so many times, I thought I wouldn't. I even got all my stuff on and got my bag and money to go to the store to buy alcohol... a lot of times actually... but never actually did I go!! Once I had my boots on and was right at the door. But I didn't go.
It felt terrible. Today was horrible. But now all the shops are closed and I can't drink. So, the part of me that doesn't want to drink is very very happy and relieved.
I'm trying not to think of tomorrow. That is scary! I could fail. Let's not think of that then.
I just wanted to say that I am happy that I am ending today sober!!
And maybe tomorrow morning I can get up early and look for the blood moon eclipse...if it's not too cloudy. That's something I totally wouldn't/couldn't do drunk or hungover.
Maybe it's not a big thing... but it's big to me. Because so many times, I thought I wouldn't. I even got all my stuff on and got my bag and money to go to the store to buy alcohol... a lot of times actually... but never actually did I go!! Once I had my boots on and was right at the door. But I didn't go.
It felt terrible. Today was horrible. But now all the shops are closed and I can't drink. So, the part of me that doesn't want to drink is very very happy and relieved.
I'm trying not to think of tomorrow. That is scary! I could fail. Let's not think of that then.
I just wanted to say that I am happy that I am ending today sober!!
And maybe tomorrow morning I can get up early and look for the blood moon eclipse...if it's not too cloudy. That's something I totally wouldn't/couldn't do drunk or hungover.
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For face to face support... I do have a therapist. Also, I'm starting this group thing next week. It's a couple hours, twice a week, for about a month. Also there is a group I can go to on thursday night, if I get myself to it. And I just heard about another group on wednesdays...
I don't really have friends or family who know, though. Just one friend, but I don't see her that often and I think she finds it uncomfortable so I try not to bring it up with her anymore.
I wish I had a friend or a sponsor or someone I could talk to, call up, when I'm in a bind. I could try to get myself to AA but that's just so scary (this is tough because I'm actually in therapy for anxiety...and a ton of other stuff... so usually to get to a scary meeting I would drink! Haha...can't do that for AA)
I don't really have friends or family who know, though. Just one friend, but I don't see her that often and I think she finds it uncomfortable so I try not to bring it up with her anymore.
I wish I had a friend or a sponsor or someone I could talk to, call up, when I'm in a bind. I could try to get myself to AA but that's just so scary (this is tough because I'm actually in therapy for anxiety...and a ton of other stuff... so usually to get to a scary meeting I would drink! Haha...can't do that for AA)
For face to face support... I do have a therapist. Also, I'm starting this group thing next week. It's a couple hours, twice a week, for about a month. Also there is a group I can go to on thursday night, if I get myself to it. And I just heard about another group on wednesdays...
I don't really have friends or family who know, though. Just one friend, but I don't see her that often and I think she finds it uncomfortable so I try not to bring it up with her anymore.
I wish I had a friend or a sponsor or someone I could talk to, call up, when I'm in a bind. I could try to get myself to AA but that's just so scary (this is tough because I'm actually in therapy for anxiety...and a ton of other stuff... so usually to get to a scary meeting I would drink! Haha...can't do that for AA)
I don't really have friends or family who know, though. Just one friend, but I don't see her that often and I think she finds it uncomfortable so I try not to bring it up with her anymore.
I wish I had a friend or a sponsor or someone I could talk to, call up, when I'm in a bind. I could try to get myself to AA but that's just so scary (this is tough because I'm actually in therapy for anxiety...and a ton of other stuff... so usually to get to a scary meeting I would drink! Haha...can't do that for AA)
Glad to hear you have some support, Lucrezia. You might find a sober friend in the new group experience. (I have never been to AA but a sober friend and sponsor sounds like a good idea. I understand that stepping out of your comfort zone can be scary; maybe you could go to a meeting and just listen - see of it is something you might like.)
Stick with SR; there is always someone here to talk to.
Congratulations on Day 3, and for resisting temptation. You sound like you're definitely ready to commit to sobriety. Personally, I found the first week to be incredibly difficult. Hang in there and keep posting!
Blood Countess
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Thanks everyone!!
I think today might be just as tough (hopefully not tougher!) but - this morning, I was able to wake up early and watch the blood moon eclipse. Also, millions more stars were visible and brilliant in the night sky, because of the darkness of the moon. It was such a profound experience - I was out there for awhile. There is no way in a million years that I would have been able to drag myself out of bed OR enjoy that experience either drunk or hungover. So for that I'm glad.
If only there was another eclipse tonight.... how do I keep myself sober tonight?!? :O
I think today might be just as tough (hopefully not tougher!) but - this morning, I was able to wake up early and watch the blood moon eclipse. Also, millions more stars were visible and brilliant in the night sky, because of the darkness of the moon. It was such a profound experience - I was out there for awhile. There is no way in a million years that I would have been able to drag myself out of bed OR enjoy that experience either drunk or hungover. So for that I'm glad.
If only there was another eclipse tonight.... how do I keep myself sober tonight?!? :O
It is a big thing Lucrezia, I remember the time I couldn't string 24hrs together, so be very proud of how far you've come in your recovery!!
Keep it simple, you only need to worry about TODAY, just make it to bedtime and that's another day Sober, then tomorrow you'll get another TODAY to focus on!!
Keep pushing through!!
Keep it simple, you only need to worry about TODAY, just make it to bedtime and that's another day Sober, then tomorrow you'll get another TODAY to focus on!!
Keep pushing through!!
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Day three is huge! I've always found it hard to get past day 3. Yey!!! I never really "got" the "one day at a time" thing until recently, and it's been a godsend (for me). Just get through today and the next thing you know you'll have a string of "todays".
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