13unluckyforsom

Day 2 sober is going ok. All be it that I've had 3 days off work but yesterday I couldn't even keep water down and today my heads still banging sore.

ScottFromWI

Congrats on day 2. Don't rule out seeing a doctor if the symptoms get too bad, withdrawal can be dangerous.

FreeOwl

happy Day 2!!

Keep going, it gets better and better!

13unluckyforsom

I'm not that bad - well not as bad as I have been in the past. I'm not shaking or sweating - I probably got off at the right stop - before it got too out of hand. Going back to work tomorrow so just sorting out finances and resting today. Thing is I got really stressed a few weeks ago and then I was literally hammering back as much alcohol as I could after 9pm finishes because I wasn't dealing with things. So the longer I drank the more I had to stress and drink about. Ignorance really isn't bliss lol

doggonecarl

Sorry you continue to struggle.

It's time to approach things differently. Whatever you've been doing hasn't been working. What you have been avoiding, recovery wise, it is time to re-evaluate and consider as an option for getting sober.

ImperfectlyMe

Welcome back

luvmygirls

Congratulations on Day 2. It sounds like things have gotten pretty low, and you are ready to do this thing! Take good care.

Cecilia44

You can do it. Take it slow. Remember, one day at a time.

MIRecovery

Sobriety is about the willingness to change. When I became desperate enough to try absolutely anything. When I had no more fight in me is when I started to get better

Soberwolf

Well done

PurpleKnight

You can do this!! Day 2 is fantastic!!

13unluckyforsom

I don't know - to be responsible I know I can't drink. I 100% know it. Sure I can go for a drink or two after work like the normal people do but then I continue to drink on my way home and when I get home. I can't do A A as my work hours and travel time don't allow for it. If I could put as much effort into not drinking as I did to hiding my drinking I'd be good. I've told people now so I'm accountable. I don't want to drink I don't even like it. I don't like stress or anxiety though either so I try and mask them. This is the thing tho - give it a few weeks and something else will stress me to the point I say "screw it"

Dee74

welcome back 13

Two things helped me - finding support - and using it; and making changes in my life.

If stress is a problem maybe it's a good time to look at other, healthier ways to deal with, or cut down, that stress, 13?

D

13unluckyforsom

In perspective I have got certain stresses that cause me anxiety but in retrospect the past few weeks have just been one thing on top of another mounting up to the point I was too busy working to address them properly so I just kept saying "omg I can't deal with this" and the longer I worried it over without doing anything the more stressed and the more I drank. And the worse it all got. I'm literally on my last legs here where I'm living so I either quit it all now for the sake of myself and my relationship with my brother and his mrs or I keep screwing up and I'm down to nothing.

This can't keep happening - it is a choice now. In terms of doing things differently I've told my nearest and dearest and hopefully now they truly understand that it's not circumstances - I can have a few for a few weeks but the end result is that I eventually can't stop. It always gets to the point of no return. 2 days sober now and this is somewhat the hardest part as it's when I'm totally freaking out but I'm also feeling rubbish enough that I wouldn't thank you for a drink. I have to go back to work

tomorrow - I don't feel like it but I need to lol I love my job but it's hard if your minds elsewhere. I have to speak to people literally all day long. Thing is I'm fundraising but it is in a sense a target driven environment so there is pressure every day to perform. People being ignorant and disrespectful is part in parcel of the job which I can take. Just a bit tricky when you throw in anxiety lol I've got meds - I should be fine. I'm rambling on.... lol

I might do AA I do have the big book. I might get the RR book too. Take what I can from anywhere right at this moment.

BeBetterforkids

Congrats on Day 2! Take one day at a time
...i actually go by minutes when the evening arrives. Keep up the good work!

Arbor

Good luck 13. The big book is a great read. Same with RR. But what I really like right now is Seven Days Sober.

13unluckyforsom

Thanks arbor I'm gonna check it out online now

CaiHong

Thirteenteen,

Would it be possible to take time out and go to rehab and just concentrate on your sobriety and ways of dealing with your alcoholism and stress.

Through your posts I sense a mind on overload that needs space to slow down and get your life into perspective and that is by building up a solid sobriety and then you will be able to manage your life much better.
It's great that you have been honest with people and most people would support in allowing you that space to change and work on your sobriety.

CaiHong

13unluckyforsom

Rehab here costs an absolute fortune - a week would cost literally thousands of pounds and to be fair I can stop. I have done - day 4 all be it but as you say it's my mind over matter. My brain is on crazy overload - I literally owe so much money I need to work 6 day weeks and I'm overwhelmed by it - having a budget and a time scale does help quell it somewhat but it's a bit depressing to see the mess I've created. I shouldn't grumble y know Im lucky in a lot of ways but last night I only slept 3 hours - my day was so stressful again and I could easily have went to the pub after work but I never. I'm glad I never. I paid bills instead - at least it's a step in the right direction. It's life huh it's taking responsibility.

risingup

every day from here you can only feel better. Tomorrow will be better than today. and so on. The great thing is you never have to feel this way again.....if you don't want to. blessings to you....I know how hard it is.