I really wanna do it this time!
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I really wanna do it this time!
I have been using class A's like heroin & crack since I was 16! I have lost 3 beautiful children due to my use, even though they were all loved, cared for, fed, clean, happy etc...
I am currently prescribed 80mls of methadone daily but ideally I want to get off it. Firstly, I need to stop using illicits, which I only use once, maybe twice a week with my partner (kids dad).
We have also buried 2 beautiful baby girls which we haven't grieved over yet! If anyone here can maybe give me a bit of support and advice, I would be truly grateful! And I am always willing to help others, as usually it aids me in keeping busy and I've always loved helping others!
Thankyou guys xxx
I am currently prescribed 80mls of methadone daily but ideally I want to get off it. Firstly, I need to stop using illicits, which I only use once, maybe twice a week with my partner (kids dad).
We have also buried 2 beautiful baby girls which we haven't grieved over yet! If anyone here can maybe give me a bit of support and advice, I would be truly grateful! And I am always willing to help others, as usually it aids me in keeping busy and I've always loved helping others!
Thankyou guys xxx
Forgive yourself...
Whilst my problem was alcohol, accepting that I suffer from the disease/illness of alcoholism and always will do and really know little or nothing about drug addiction.
I nevertheless, empathise with you on two fronts, as an addict (alcohol, despite what others might think is a drug and therefore addictive) and myself having 'lost' everything twice, although perhaps not in the conventional sense .... although it did involve a period of grieving and a slow healing process, the scars of which remain...
Without then wishing to sound trite or patronising, remembering what I went through, my advice, forgiveness, especially to others is a wonderful thing.
Even more wonderful, as it assists anyones recovery, including yours and mine, considering all you've gone or are going through, is to learn to forgive yourself....
I nevertheless, empathise with you on two fronts, as an addict (alcohol, despite what others might think is a drug and therefore addictive) and myself having 'lost' everything twice, although perhaps not in the conventional sense .... although it did involve a period of grieving and a slow healing process, the scars of which remain...
Without then wishing to sound trite or patronising, remembering what I went through, my advice, forgiveness, especially to others is a wonderful thing.
Even more wonderful, as it assists anyones recovery, including yours and mine, considering all you've gone or are going through, is to learn to forgive yourself....
Hi and welcome. YOu will find many people here who relate to your struggles. There is also a section specific to those who struggle form drug addiction that you may find helpful. I am sorry for what you have gone through. Wishing you great strength.
Welcome, lovewiredin, to SR. You have found a very understanding and supportive place.
Your "re" line says it all:
"I really wanna do it this time!"
Is your bf ready, too?
I also tend a small grave.
Your "re" line says it all:
"I really wanna do it this time!"
Is your bf ready, too?
I also tend a small grave.
Grieving, especially grieving the loss of a child/children, is very hard work; have you considered grief counseling? I can only imagine that grieving greatly complicates recovery.
I am very sorry for your profound loss.
I am very sorry for your profound loss.
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