jarp

Ah tried to hang himself on Sunday. Kindly let me know before he did so I had time to call an ambulance. He was found, taken in to hospital and released. Emotional dog poo.

He has an appointment with an addiction psychiatrist today, supposedly. The other one specialises in personality disorders, and has referred him on. Maybe he'll show, maybe he won't. Out of my control dog poo.

He quit his job today. Yay. Financial dog poo.

A bunch of our stuff is in his name...I asked him to please put my name on things so I can't sort stuff out (we have very strict privacy laws that prevent me from even paying a bill in his name unless I'm authorised). Our car is a work lease, mortgage in both names etc. He won't do it. Financial dog poo x 2.

He can't get into rehab apparently for another 2 weeks. Waiting list dog poo.

I had no sleep Sunday night, had to work interstate the next day so up at 3am, worked 16 hours, home to kids that were still awake (eek) and dealt with that. Then made mistake of answering AH's phone call. Emotional and verbal abuse ensued until i hung up. just plain old dog poo.

Now I am angry and finding hard to access my compassion. Step backwards dog poo.

Lawyer appointment today....Court wouldn't accept any financial settlement whilst he is in this state....he's impaired. Lawyer advise? This situation is dog poo. Advised I wait until (and this sounds dreadful) AH's terminally I'll father dies....his inheritance will cover me being able to keep the house. I just need to make enough money to pay our huge mortgages, and pay out the stupid car lease. Can't move on dog poo.

I'm so over this. I wish I'd never met that piece of poo.


ETA I don't mean that....that he's poo....it's just how I'm feeling at the moment bc my coping tank is empty.

amy55

((((((((((((jarp)))))))))))))))

You just got handed the biggest pile of dog poo imaginable. I'm so sorry. Just wanted to let you know that I hear you and I am here for you.

amy

jarp

Thanks Amy, it does help.

Stung

Oh my goodness. I'm sending you the hugest hug possible. I am so sorry that you're dealing with all of this. I'm sending you lots of hugs and love and hoping that you remember to take care of yourself in all of this. I'm so sorry, Jarp.

Catherine628

I'm so sorry you are going through this. You remind me of that saying: You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

WendyOR

I am so very sorry! Just reading this, I think we all could feel it... the poo part. I am so very sorry you are going through this. Stay strong and focused. So easy for us to say from this side... but, just hang on. You are one tough cookie. You have this... one foot in front of the other... slow baby steps if need be.

PunchDrunk

Im so sorry your life is so turbulent and uncertain right now. Mine is as well, and my coping skills are in dire need of refilling. However, your eloquent use of the word poo did put a smile on my face.

Thank you for sharing. One day at a time sounds so trite but it's so true....

maia1234

All I can say is "I am praying for you!" (((((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))))

Missus

Just want to say that, yes, Aussie privacy laws make it impossible to get some stuff done grrrr, unless you remember when setting up the account (or at least when the account holder is rational and available) to set up a second nominated person as well. Which of course, you never do because why would you need to? Argh

And ... I wonder why on earth he would be released after a suicide attempt? I don't understand hospitals (sigh)

jarp

Neither do I missus. But like our lovely privacy laws we also have an excellent Mental Healt Act which protects the rights of people to make terrible decisions in relation to their own lives!! BPD isn't even classified as a mental illness in Australia - he doesn't have voices in his head telling him to kill himself...he's 'choosing' to (try) and the law protects his right to do this, whilst simultaneously making suicide an illegal act!!!! Gotta love lawmakers.

Santa

So sorry jarp

NWGRITS

So how exactly is suicide illegal? How does that work in practice? I'm genuinely intrigued here.

Big heaping pile of dog poo, indeed. Goodness. They really know how to muck it all up.

Raider

I'm so sorry.

SoaringSpirits

If you're going through hell, keep going!

Hang in there and keep posting.

LightInside

Oh, Honey! That is just utter sh...dog poo. Weelll... I heard once, "If you have to eat a sh1t (dog poo) sandwich, take big bites." I just finished most of mine and I am so ready for a peach crisp with real whipped cream. I apologize if that's just too gross, but I think we've all seen some serious dog poo. Big loves going your way.

jarp

Hahaha thanks for the belly laugh on a dark day!!

jarp

Well actually looks like that law was repealed! But in essence it was a criminal act and it looks like if you survived you could be charged w manslaughter.

It's now just a criminal act to aid and abet suicide (plays into end of life decisions in euthanasia).

jarp

Attempted manslaughter I mean!

ShootingStar1

Oh Jarp this is just an unbelievable almost unbearable amount of garden fertilizer to have spread on your life.

I am so so sorry.

Maybe the only hope is that next spring your flowers will bloom?

May your life bloom as well, sending powerful good wishes your way,

ShootingStar1

KidsR#1

I am so sorry Jarp. Take care of yourself and get enough rest. Hopefully that will help with coping with all of this dog poo