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hello, im just looking for a good place to let go o some of the stress of my life. i hear forums really help since they allow for anonymous feelings and ideas. i have a drug problems with roxy's. I used to shoot them for a couple years but fell into a deep dark hole. i realized i needed to get back into college and turn my life around before it was to late. so i cleaned up my act and got back into school. im a junior whose double majoring in physics and engineering. despite my strive for life and my intelligence i picked back up my drug problem. this time i snot them. i hide my problem from almost everyone. i work two jobs and go to school with a severe drug problem. i cannot support myself financially because of my problem. i currently have enough self control to pay my school bill but thats it. everything else gets ignored. and i know damn well that things will get worse and i will not be able to pay for school. these little pills have retook control of my life. even though i know how demonic they are i cant stay away. i need help but dont want people looking down on me. ive kept it hidden my whole life. drug addicts have such a bad rep. its like people automatically assume if you have a drug problem than u are a horrible person.
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Most schools and universities offer drug treatment programs for students. Don't be afraid to avail yourself to these services. They want to help you and make sure you are successful.
good luck!
good luck!
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Thanks roarroar for starting a thread where I can post my current feelings . . . I've been 90 days maryjane free . . . then on the 7th (of Sept.) saw some people who I hadn't seen since the quit, and I said to myself "only today" . . . well, I'm still 12 days later fooling around with that crap in my head and in real life. I just want to cry.
[But on the bright side, I'm 116 days out of 117 days no alcohol (day 5 today).]
[But on the bright side, I'm 116 days out of 117 days no alcohol (day 5 today).]
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thanks guys, sorry had to go to work. and im honestly afraid to get help from my university. i dont want this addiction to follow me around. i might be stuck in a deep rut but will do everything i can to make it not stick with me forever. i dont know why i started back up. i dont feel strong enough to quit again. i know the pain i will go through. i make every excuse in the book... its sad.. can't help but cry at night like this when i contemplate my daily adventures, mistakes, and secrets...
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Welcome roarroar 
I'd think about approaching the school thing again. Most Universities have help for this kind of thing. You won't be the first or the last...
getting help before it's too late is less likely to 'follow you around' than a full out publicn crash and burn will, yeah?
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I'd think about approaching the school thing again. Most Universities have help for this kind of thing. You won't be the first or the last...
getting help before it's too late is less likely to 'follow you around' than a full out publicn crash and burn will, yeah?
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roarroar, this is so sad 
I hope you find it in yourself to stop the miserable cycle... It's possible to stop, you know. You're strong enough and everything you need is within you already. This is a good site for support and information. We're here, keep reading and posting. 
I hope you find it in yourself to stop the miserable cycle... It's possible to stop, you know. You're strong enough and everything you need is within you already. This is a good site for support and information. We're here, keep reading and posting. Member
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yea i read it somewhere too. i believe it has something to do with a certain chemical lapse in the brain. all of our chemicals throughout the years differ depending on how we live our life. reading produces chemicals, drinking coffee produces others. the brain and body is quite an amazing thing. just wish we had more contol ovr it.
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Originally Posted by roarroar 
. the brain and body is quite an amazing thing. just wish we had more contol ovr it.
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Originally Posted by roarroar
thank u guys. you do make people feel welcomed thts for sure. have u guys met many people with a lapse between addictions as long as a year and a half??
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