youarehome

This is my 3rd attempt at quitting these little monsters for good. I'm ready to get rid of these chains. That's what it feels like. I wake up, and it's the first thing I think about: how many I have for that day, when they'll last me to, and God forbid I run out.... I have to run to the street or make endless phone calls until I get what I want. I'm not even a person who has a lot of money, definitely not enough to keep up with this. I've been (back) on them for more than a year now, taking at the minimum 3 10mgs and maximum 10 10 mgs a day. Depending on my supply. I am a 23 year old mother and wife. I am truly ashamed of myself. But I get so scared when I think about quitting. How will I have energy to do what I'm supposed to do during the day without them? How will I be "happy"? And I already know how painful withdrawals are (I'm going through them right now.... insomnia, chills, body aches like crazy, nausea, depression in general) and even worse, the CRAVINGS!! Please give me some hope! I know I can beat this, but most of the time I already self defeat.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!!

You'll find loads of support here on SR!! You can do this!!

SnowDawg

Good luck. As painful as it is, can be done. BE STRONG!

Dee74

Hi and welcome youarehome

all this is completely normal. Change is a big Unknown. And Fear more than anything else would send me scurrying back to my drugs of choice (I identify as an alcoholic)

Just look around tho - there's a lot of people here - normal, decent, every day folks - who've broken the stanglehold and are living happy sober lives.

You can do it to. Take it one day at a time for now...and use the support and ideas you'll find here, both in this forum and our substance abuse forum too

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Soberwolf

hello as i write this i got beautiful pain playing thru headphones by eminem and sia

Really nice to meet you it will get a lot better thru being sober