Wait for it... wait for it...
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Lawrence, KS
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Wait for it... wait for it...
A week ago I logged back in to SR, after several months' hiatus, only to be greeted with this memo:
"Hello roguedreams,
Our records indicate that you haven't posted in a while. We want to hear what you have to say!"
That was ... truly exactly what I needed to read, so whichever mod or admin decided on putting that there, it's a stroke of genius. THANK YOU.
So, I logged back in. And read, and read, and read (and have continued to do so the entirety of this past week).
I was sober until the end of May-ish, drank "here and there" socially throughout June, fell on my face (proverbially) in a drunken stupor on the fourth of July but continued to take a drink here or there, with sober days in between, throughout that month. August saw me lose my job, which led to a tailspin of a toilet flush of drinking and plenty of the awful, embarrassing, ego-bruising, risky behavior that accompanies it. Even though every step of the way, I KNEW that it wasn't solving any problems. At. All.
Somehow, in a nutshell (because I could go on and on about all my ruminations but that's just pointless blather that goes without saying, lol) this past week I collected my wits, my pride and what morale was left and sobered up ... but it took me a bit of reading and humble-pie eating to get the courage up to post on here once again.
I'm ... grateful. Grateful for SR. Grateful for the recent humbling experience(s).
Onwards, soldier. Oof.
"Hello roguedreams,
Our records indicate that you haven't posted in a while. We want to hear what you have to say!"
That was ... truly exactly what I needed to read, so whichever mod or admin decided on putting that there, it's a stroke of genius. THANK YOU.
So, I logged back in. And read, and read, and read (and have continued to do so the entirety of this past week).
I was sober until the end of May-ish, drank "here and there" socially throughout June, fell on my face (proverbially) in a drunken stupor on the fourth of July but continued to take a drink here or there, with sober days in between, throughout that month. August saw me lose my job, which led to a tailspin of a toilet flush of drinking and plenty of the awful, embarrassing, ego-bruising, risky behavior that accompanies it. Even though every step of the way, I KNEW that it wasn't solving any problems. At. All.
Somehow, in a nutshell (because I could go on and on about all my ruminations but that's just pointless blather that goes without saying, lol) this past week I collected my wits, my pride and what morale was left and sobered up ... but it took me a bit of reading and humble-pie eating to get the courage up to post on here once again.
I'm ... grateful. Grateful for SR. Grateful for the recent humbling experience(s).
Onwards, soldier. Oof.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: FPO
Posts: 119
Hey Rogue!
Love your sense of humor. I'm here after toying with drinking for the past 9 months. I had ten years before that of awesome sobriety.
I decided to have a grand pity party for myself this year and fueled it with all kinds of crap and then the alcohol threw some flames on and we were off on a roll. I didn't get too drunk - just enough to feel like **** most of the time and lose myself and self worth.
So here I am too
I'm ready to have my life back and need strength for it.
Hugs,
Beth
Love your sense of humor. I'm here after toying with drinking for the past 9 months. I had ten years before that of awesome sobriety.
I decided to have a grand pity party for myself this year and fueled it with all kinds of crap and then the alcohol threw some flames on and we were off on a roll. I didn't get too drunk - just enough to feel like **** most of the time and lose myself and self worth.
So here I am too
I'm ready to have my life back and need strength for it.Hugs,
Beth
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Posts: 3,359
Welcome back...I always had a good feeling that you would get this and was sad when you disappeared. Glad to see you pick the pieces up and I hope you are sick of being sick. Leave the pride, I have found it never helped me and keep the humility.
Maybe loosing the job was a blessing in disguise...I always felt that would be tough to remain sober when the biz model is for clients to buy you drinks.
Welcome back!
Maybe loosing the job was a blessing in disguise...I always felt that would be tough to remain sober when the biz model is for clients to buy you drinks.
Welcome back!
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: Minneapolis
Posts: 444
Minus the job loss, all of this (including the months you started back up, and the progression) sound virtually identical to what led ME here last month.
We/I are here for you. You'll find all the love and support you could ask for here, buddy.
Good luck!
We/I are here for you. You'll find all the love and support you could ask for here, buddy.
Good luck!
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