Day 1
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Charlotte, NC
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Day 1
Hello all, I'm on day 1 and am looking forward to feeling proud of myself again. Planning a trip to the doctor for some cymbalta, as it has helped me deal with depression and anxiety in the past. When you wake up after several sober days (I've "quit" several days at a time in the past few months) but can't even get out of bed then - something's got to give, it's not just alcoholism/abuse/drinking ritual I'm dealing with its depression and GAD. As for therapy, I'd like to try that as much as possible, but with work, a long commute, 3 year old and my little one's dad only in the picture a day or so per week, I've already accepted that this journey to sobriety is going to be pretty personal and somewhat solo for me. I'm exhausted, so tired of struggling to meet all the demands of work, my son, my ex, my friends, the world and tired of trying to relieve my stress and anxiety through alcohol - which makes me seem energized for a moment but then really exhausts me more the next day. Not to mention the self hatred and beating up on myself during the anxiety filled hangovers. I do believe that I can succeed in being sober by staying on this site, doing my homework and putting my sobriety first when making daily decisions. I believe that I need a structure in my life to prevent some of the anxieties I currently subject myself to for no reason. I need to implement short walks in the mornings, etc to build new habits...I need to eat healthy and try to take supplements (vit d deficient) and take small steps and changes over these first days. Anyway, see you all around and hope you are also keeping in good health today.
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Welcome Pretend! We're so glad you found us and reached out.
I thought drinking was a great reliever of stress, but in the end it did just the opposite. You sound ready to make this big change in your life. We know you can do it.
I thought drinking was a great reliever of stress, but in the end it did just the opposite. You sound ready to make this big change in your life. We know you can do it.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Charlotte, NC
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Thanks Hevyn and Wolf. Thanks in advance to anyone else who takes the time to read or post back. It's gotten pretty isolated in my world and it's nice to have those who know where I am be supportive to a total stranger new person! Thanks again.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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I think you are on the right track. I know what you mean about being exhausted and I can tell you what really helped me was diet and exercise. If you can eat healthy and exercise that will give you some energy. I gave up sugar and carbs even though I craved it and believe it or not after a few days the cravings (even for alcohol) went away. It is not easy to do at first but you can do it ...the rewards are worth it. I wish you all the very best.
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