Scared :(
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Scared :(
Day 6. Just got home from the emergency room. I've been super sick for the last 6 days and started having an anxiety/panic attack today's and convinced myself I had meningitis or an infection from IV use and checked myself in. Turns out nothing is wrong. But I'm so scared. I can't keep living this way. I never want to drink or use again. I don't want to die like this. I'm just so lost and feel so alone and terrified 
I hope to god please hope to god that was my last relapse.
I hope to god please hope to god that was my last relapse.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Mrrr, I'm not quoting some movie when I say, there is no "hope"...there is only "Do".
You can Do this.
My health terrified me when I first quit. I knew I'd be calling 911 and they'd be notifying my family. Got close once but, it was not nearly as close as all the close calls I had while drinking.
Now, I'll quote a book:
Don't Panic. Get Your Towel.
Hang in there, you'll be ok.
You can Do this.
My health terrified me when I first quit. I knew I'd be calling 911 and they'd be notifying my family. Got close once but, it was not nearly as close as all the close calls I had while drinking.
Now, I'll quote a book:
Don't Panic. Get Your Towel.
Hang in there, you'll be ok.
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Give it some time, myrrrah.....we've all been where you are today. You are doing great! 6 days is an accomplishment. Keep going. Eat well, drink lots of water and juice, nourish your body, rest. It's really hard and scary in the beginning. But it gets easier. You can do this. ...and then you never have to go through it again. Stay close to this site.
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I still remember the horrors of the anxiety attacks I had when I stopped drinking. You don't have to go through this again. Do you have a plan to do something differently this time?
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Blessings to you Myrrah. I'm so glad you posted about what you are going through. Anxiety is just so darn ...well...awful. It feels like it's a monster that lies in wait under so very many of our beds. Snuggling with a pooch is good medicine. Stay with it..and stay with us : )
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Hi Mrrryah1,
Just want you to know that you are not alone. I am on day 7 now also, and the anxiety is horrible. Feel like I want to jump right out of my skin.
I have always had it, but the drinking definitely made it worse...(even though my crazy thoughts made it seem like it was helping)
Hang in there...each day will get better.
Just want you to know that you are not alone. I am on day 7 now also, and the anxiety is horrible. Feel like I want to jump right out of my skin.
I have always had it, but the drinking definitely made it worse...(even though my crazy thoughts made it seem like it was helping)
Hang in there...each day will get better.
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Originally Posted by Mrrryah1 
I can't keep living this way.
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Hears The Voice
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Everybody's been there, everybody's been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear, and done some disappearing, bowed down to the mighty
But don't run, stop holding your tongue.
Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your BRAVE is.
You can do this.
Fallen for the fear, and done some disappearing, bowed down to the mighty
But don't run, stop holding your tongue.
Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your BRAVE is.
You can do this.
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