My best friend is dying of liver failure. I have to quit this.
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My best friend is dying of liver failure. I have to quit this.
I visited my best friend, best man in my wedding, friend for 20 years. The whites of his eyes were the color of egg yolks. He could barely speak coherently. He was white as a ghost. His once huge build is now like a frail old man even though he's only 36. last night I dreamt that I had liver failure as well and I died. My eyes were the same color as his. I am so sick of this....
I'm going to do this. I'm going to fight the fight that my friend has lost. I hope things turn around for him more than anything but it is looking really, really bad. So young to not experience life. I wanted to know him as an old man. So we could go fishing again. So he could watch my kids grow and they could know him not as a friend but as an uncle. Now I only see him in a wooden box underground because of this stupid thing called addiction. I see myself helping carry him out while we wait to bury him. All of this just so we could feel good by using a poison that eventually will drive us to the grave. It's not fun and games anymore. It's death. This is the evil hidden face of addiction.
I'm going to do this. I'm going to fight the fight that my friend has lost. I hope things turn around for him more than anything but it is looking really, really bad. So young to not experience life. I wanted to know him as an old man. So we could go fishing again. So he could watch my kids grow and they could know him not as a friend but as an uncle. Now I only see him in a wooden box underground because of this stupid thing called addiction. I see myself helping carry him out while we wait to bury him. All of this just so we could feel good by using a poison that eventually will drive us to the grave. It's not fun and games anymore. It's death. This is the evil hidden face of addiction.
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I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Everything you say about addiction is true. What a wonderful tribute to him it would be for you to save yourself from the same fate. You can do this and you will find a lot of support here.
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Originally Posted by suki44883 
I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Everything you say about addiction is true. What a wonderful tribute to him it would be for you to save yourself from the same fate. You can do this and you will find a lot of support here.
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Hello hope sorry about what is currently happening there is a great friends and family section where you might want to post also I wasn't clear on are you drinking yourself ?
Really sorry don't know what to say were all here for you if your choosing to get well
Really sorry don't know what to say were all here for you if your choosing to get well
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My heart breaks for you and your friend. Your words were so moving, I had to write them down and keep them somewhere for myself as a reminder.
You can enjoy a beautiful life in sobriety, of that I'm sure. Best of luck to you, we're all here right by your side.
You can enjoy a beautiful life in sobriety, of that I'm sure. Best of luck to you, we're all here right by your side.
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So sorry for your friend, welcome to this site, your words are powerful and spell out the seriousness of this horrible addiction- Im 33 now and have been guilty of the 'it'll never happen to me' attitude and know no-one is immune to this- we're playing Russian roulette with our lives every time we pick up that poison.
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So Sorry...My 2 closest friends with whom I've drank enough beer to float a battleship are still heavy drinkers. I got sober 4 years ago. I fear the worst for them, but know it is useless to say anything. Best of luck, post every day.
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Welcome Dredg.
It is awful about your friend - I'm so sad for you both. You're doing a great thing by facing what needs to be done in your own life. I hope you'll stay with us and keep posting.
It is awful about your friend - I'm so sad for you both. You're doing a great thing by facing what needs to be done in your own life. I hope you'll stay with us and keep posting.
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Hi Dredg,
I survived liver failure almost 4 months ago. I was just as your friend is when I was admitted to ICU. I almost needed an emergency liver transplant and almost didn't survive. But I did, and woudn't wish this death on anyone, it is not a clean death. I am so lucky to have lived and am now Sober and healthy, with my own liver healing. My Sobriety began with Divine Intervention, I believe. I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.
There is a way out. You can do this. God bless you.
Bunnez
I survived liver failure almost 4 months ago. I was just as your friend is when I was admitted to ICU. I almost needed an emergency liver transplant and almost didn't survive. But I did, and woudn't wish this death on anyone, it is not a clean death. I am so lucky to have lived and am now Sober and healthy, with my own liver healing. My Sobriety began with Divine Intervention, I believe. I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.
There is a way out. You can do this. God bless you.
Bunnez
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"Die Naturally"
They're gonna put me in the movies
They're gonna make a big star out of me
We'll make a film about a man once sad and lonely
And all I gotta do is die naturally
Live long and prosper.
They're gonna put me in the movies
They're gonna make a big star out of me
We'll make a film about a man once sad and lonely
And all I gotta do is die naturally
Live long and prosper.
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