Jus

In all honesty, I'm feeling very sad, reading so many posts here.

I started drinking at a young age, for a lot of the same reason you all did.

It continued for years, which turned into decades, sad fact.

I honestly thought, I was a no hoper. I had a bad case of the, "I CAN'T! I live with a drinker!" That was my number one EXCUSE. I was making this about him, and not me. Today I finally get it. It has nothing to do with him.

I tried everything, but I never gave up, even the days when that UGLY voice told me, I was doomed with this, till the end. I'd put a bit of time together, a month, maybe two, but didn't work at it. Didn't use a program, or talk to others who had the same issue. My stubborn gene, seemed to think, I could do this alone.

I used to think, what if I died, in the middle of the night, when I had drank to much. Would my creator, turn it's back on me, because I hadn't worked hard enough on keeping my sobriety. When I think about that now, it's funny where I thinking can go at times.

My heart goes out to all of you suffering, possibly thinking the way I used to think.

My heart also rejoiced, because you're all here, reaching out for help.

You need to change your thinking.
You need to make changes.
You need to find a program.
You need to find your HP, one of the most powerful sources.
You need to learn to quiet your thinking, yes meditation!
You need to let others help you.
You need to stop, telling yourself, you CAN'T, because you CAN!!!
You need to stop, making excuses.
You need to understand, this is about YOU, no one else.
You need to understand, what, one day at a time, and just for today means.
You need to stay in the day, not worry about tomorrow or yesterday.
You need to find a passion.

I could go on, but you get where I'm going.

Welcome to your New Healthier Life.
If I can do this, anyone can.

Today I'm tightly embracing the New Happier Me.
I chose, to be happy, and it's working. It's not up to another
to do that for me.

Today I work on changes, what a relief.
Some say they can't change.
Some say, change scares them.

I hope you soon chose to change. What a relief it is, and not
scary in the least. It opens a whole new world, a whole new learning
experience. The possibilities are endless.

Reaching out to all of those who suffer, thinking, they can't stop.

You can, and you will. Keep at this, never give up.

You can do it.
We can do it, together.

Wishing you all the best with your journey to sobriety, and FREEDOM.

Find a program, use it, don't ever get lazy with this. It's relentless!! You'll
get stronger as time goes by. One day you won't even think about counting the days, that won't even matter. What you learn daily is KEY to this.

There will always be a reason to drink, won't there? But, there will always
be a reason not too, tons of reasons not too.

Thanks for listening, I'm cheering you all one.

Resolv

Jus, thank you for the post. It says a lot. I've always acknowledged I'm responsible for my own happiness, I'm responsible for my drinking, but @ 30 days sober, I'm not only talking the talk, but am walking the walk. I can either be my own worst enemy or my own best friend. Easier said than done, but not impossible. Again, thank you. Resolv

Jus

Hi Resolv, I like what you just said. Way to go.....30 days.

Well, being happy was always an issue with me. Unfortunately, I was living my life, the way I was taught at a very young age. One being, not liking myself. I wasn't aware, I was as miserably unhappy as I was.

A few years ago, my sister, asked me why, I didn't think I deserved to be happy?

Once again, I wasn't aware some could see, what I couldn't.

Boy oh boy, some of us can be blind at times.

I'm grateful beyond words, that I've woke up. That's why I started this thread,
in hopes it will trigger others, even if it saves, ONE person today.

Sharing my new passion today. I also hope it encourages those who want to
change, and find a new passion. Mine is photography, if I was living my life like I was before, none of this would be happening today. I'd be to sick, to even think about walking outside. Photography has opened a whole new beautiful world for me. I'm in awe of it, what we walk by daily, and can't see it.

Here's a couple pictures I just took, from my garden, nothing fancy, just a quick snap or two. I love taking pictures, more so, after it's rained out.

A little over exposed, but, I'm still learning. Flowers from my peas.

PurpleKnight

Fantastic post and pics Jus!!