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Old 08-13-2014, 07:03 AM
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Day 7

No cravings. Just blah. Rainy day, lots to do, no motivation to do anything. Really could use some support. Holes that I've dug feel too deep to climb out of.
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:20 AM
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Google "Anhedonia and addiction". Lethargy is common in early sobriety.

Congrats on 7 days. Keep going, it gets better!
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:35 AM
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Thank you. I hope and pray it will get better. I've always been the type to want everything fixed "right now" . Of course I know that's not possible, but I feel like I'm finally waking up to process and grieve over all the fallout from my addiction. I am fortunately not in danger, there are n other addicts in my life, I started this ride all on my own because I couldn't cope with unrelenting stress. Even after the biggest issues were resolved, the aftershocks from the fallout and destruction kept me going back to alcohol.

Now, without alcohol, I am really feeling the grief.
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:47 AM
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I can relate to really feeling the feelings now that the alcohol is gone! While I feel like it can be overwhelming at times, I'm still grateful that I'm giving myself the opportunity to actually work through this rather than to continue to drink the feelings away. It takes time to heal physically and emotionally and it really can be tiring! It is ok to be feeling a little down. The more sober time you put behind you, the better you will feel. Congratulations on your 7 days....that is awesome!
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:50 AM
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I've always been the type to want everything fixed "right now"
I think that is the nature of addiction. Instant gratification, I want what I want and I want it now.

Patience is something that I have had to learn and it takes time. Patience with others as well as with myself.

Take one day at a time. Congrats on day 7! Keep on keeping on. It gets easier, hang in there.
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:54 AM
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Thank you, thank you for your response soberclover. I thought I would be so much further along at this point. For many months, even after I lost my job in December, I had hope and believed all would turn out ok....but I still don't know what my "new normal" is going to be.... I know that I don't want it to include feelings of despair
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Thank you Gracielou. You are spot on that instant gratification is part of the recipe for addiction. God grant me patience, please.....
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Old 08-13-2014, 07:59 AM
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No cravings. Just blah. Rainy day, lots to do, no motivation to do anything. Really could use some support. Holes that I've dug feel too deep to climb out of.
Stop dwelling on the holes and start working on a ladder.
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Old 08-13-2014, 09:04 AM
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Excellent advice doggonecarl! Thank you.....will tape these words to my mirror and hang on the fridge!

I've got lots of people to help me build that ladder...time to ask them for positive help and support, instead of just pulling them into the holes too
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Great job on Day 7!! Keep pushing through!!
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Old 08-13-2014, 09:51 AM
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Seven days is a huge milestone. The big ones ( I think) are day, week, month, year. Pat yourself in the back, you're doing great.
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Old 08-13-2014, 10:05 AM
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Thank you people of SR.
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Old 08-13-2014, 10:15 AM
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I think if I had been able to hang on to my job, things,might have looked a lot different right now. Almost 20 years as a successful non profit manager. I solely supported my family, gained statewide and national recognition for my work, traveled around the country...lost my professional reputation and worse, ability to,support my children. How humbling. And scary.
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Old 08-13-2014, 12:21 PM
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I blew it today, back to scary withdrawals and regrets.
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Old 08-13-2014, 01:19 PM
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Originally Posted by mapp View Post
I blew it today, back to scary withdrawals and regrets.
How did you go from no cravings and just feeling blah to the misery of drinking again?

Could have posting here before you picked up been an option? Or were you that determined to drink?
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Old 08-13-2014, 03:33 PM
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Posting before I picked up definitely was an option, one that I didn't exercise, unfortunately. Out and about running errands, and feeling sorry for myself - pity party of one, how sad.
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Old 08-13-2014, 03:35 PM
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All I can do, I guess, is hit re-start and begin again.
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