Day 7
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Thank you. I hope and pray it will get better. I've always been the type to want everything fixed "right now" . Of course I know that's not possible, but I feel like I'm finally waking up to process and grieve over all the fallout from my addiction. I am fortunately not in danger, there are n other addicts in my life, I started this ride all on my own because I couldn't cope with unrelenting stress. Even after the biggest issues were resolved, the aftershocks from the fallout and destruction kept me going back to alcohol.
Now, without alcohol, I am really feeling the grief.
Now, without alcohol, I am really feeling the grief.
I can relate to really feeling the feelings now that the alcohol is gone! While I feel like it can be overwhelming at times, I'm still grateful that I'm giving myself the opportunity to actually work through this rather than to continue to drink the feelings away. It takes time to heal physically and emotionally and it really can be tiring! It is ok to be feeling a little down. The more sober time you put behind you, the better you will feel. Congratulations on your 7 days....that is awesome!
I think that is the nature of addiction. Instant gratification, I want what I want and I want it now.
Patience is something that I have had to learn and it takes time. Patience with others as well as with myself.
Take one day at a time. Congrats on day 7! Keep on keeping on. It gets easier, hang in there.
Patience is something that I have had to learn and it takes time. Patience with others as well as with myself.
Take one day at a time. Congrats on day 7! Keep on keeping on. It gets easier, hang in there.
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Thank you, thank you for your response soberclover. I thought I would be so much further along at this point. For many months, even after I lost my job in December, I had hope and believed all would turn out ok....but I still don't know what my "new normal" is going to be.... I know that I don't want it to include feelings of despair
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Excellent advice doggonecarl! Thank you.....will tape these words to my mirror and hang on the fridge!
I've got lots of people to help me build that ladder...time to ask them for positive help and support, instead of just pulling them into the holes too
I've got lots of people to help me build that ladder...time to ask them for positive help and support, instead of just pulling them into the holes too
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I think if I had been able to hang on to my job, things,might have looked a lot different right now. Almost 20 years as a successful non profit manager. I solely supported my family, gained statewide and national recognition for my work, traveled around the country...lost my professional reputation and worse, ability to,support my children. How humbling. And scary.
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