Nearly but didnt!
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Nearly but didnt!
My first weekend away since getting sober.
I didn't know if I'd get through it.
I have to be honest and say i struggled, I thought of drink a lot and nearly caved - I had a thought last night while me and my boyfriend were at a comedy club, that I could go up to the bar (boyfriend none the wiser) order an "orange juice" which really would have as much vodka as the glass would take. It would make me feel like everyone else looked around me, happy, having fun, part of the crowd, anyone else but ME......normal. Then I fast forwarded to this morning, how gutted I would feel, back to day 1 and hating myself. I had a great night, we laughed, I remembered the whole show, I came back to the hotel looking how I left. Not being carried, shoeless and unable to speak.
I can't believe I got through it.
Woke up, feeling relieved and not hungover. Had a great night and managed to talk myself off of what literally felt like the edge for me.
45 days of being sober.
L x
I didn't know if I'd get through it.
I have to be honest and say i struggled, I thought of drink a lot and nearly caved - I had a thought last night while me and my boyfriend were at a comedy club, that I could go up to the bar (boyfriend none the wiser) order an "orange juice" which really would have as much vodka as the glass would take. It would make me feel like everyone else looked around me, happy, having fun, part of the crowd, anyone else but ME......normal. Then I fast forwarded to this morning, how gutted I would feel, back to day 1 and hating myself. I had a great night, we laughed, I remembered the whole show, I came back to the hotel looking how I left. Not being carried, shoeless and unable to speak.
I can't believe I got through it.
Woke up, feeling relieved and not hungover. Had a great night and managed to talk myself off of what literally felt like the edge for me.
45 days of being sober.
L x
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Hi FG (good name BTW), I remember having a crisis point like that, where if I took one road, literally, it would lead to the bottle shop, or the other road would lead home. I was so grateful I chose to go home. It was a turning point for me and over 2 years later, I'm still sober. Well done.
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Originally Posted by Foolsgold186 
I had a great night, we laughed, I remembered the whole show, I came back to the hotel looking how I left. Not being carried, shoeless and unable to speak.
Good for you for fighting through it. Those moments pass and they are so worth getting through sober.
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Originally Posted by wellvoice
Thanks so much for posting this, Foolsgold. I'm on night 3 and have been fighting an urge. Reading your post has helped a lot. Congrats on your 45 days!
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Seems like us scottish folk think we need alcohol to enjoy ourselves foolsgold. It's been like that as long as I can remember for me. Everytime I went anywhere like a night out of a wedding or anything I'd always be the drunkest there. I think it's great you managed to resist. I've not been tested like that as yet and I'm only on day 11 but I'm so determined this time. I've ready declined the invite to a works night out which is coming up and probably won't go to the Christmas night either. I want to stop this now so my child doesn't grow up into the same culture.. Well done you and keep it up.
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