Now he's OD'd
Now he's OD'd
I know I am not allowed to swear here.....but really......F THIS.
AH went to a GP to get his dressings changed on his sliced up wrists and managed to somehow convince the half wit of a doctor to give him more valium, and some Imrest (zopiclone).
I got a txt from him this morning that I could barely understand....saying he couldn't attend counselling with me today bc he'd had a 'reaction' to some sleeping tablets.
He turned up anyhow, very unsteady, slurring, not making much sense. Walked out after half an hour.
Tonight I get a call from a friend who'd gone to check on him, said he was almost unresponsive.....bottles all around him....friend assumed he was intoxicated. Then he found the tablets....there were 32 missing, valium pack empty, phenergen empty. He's just called the ambulance.
Counsellor today said (like the 3 recent ER doc assessments) she doesn't think he's a suicide risk per se.....it would be more a 'misadventure'.
Also said he has strong traits of borderline personality disorder. Should have seen that coming. And brain injury.
I am so, so tired. I'm staying away from the hospital.
How can this be my life?
AH went to a GP to get his dressings changed on his sliced up wrists and managed to somehow convince the half wit of a doctor to give him more valium, and some Imrest (zopiclone).
I got a txt from him this morning that I could barely understand....saying he couldn't attend counselling with me today bc he'd had a 'reaction' to some sleeping tablets.
He turned up anyhow, very unsteady, slurring, not making much sense. Walked out after half an hour.
Tonight I get a call from a friend who'd gone to check on him, said he was almost unresponsive.....bottles all around him....friend assumed he was intoxicated. Then he found the tablets....there were 32 missing, valium pack empty, phenergen empty. He's just called the ambulance.
Counsellor today said (like the 3 recent ER doc assessments) she doesn't think he's a suicide risk per se.....it would be more a 'misadventure'.
Also said he has strong traits of borderline personality disorder. Should have seen that coming. And brain injury.
I am so, so tired. I'm staying away from the hospital.
How can this be my life?
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Oh, wow, it just keeps piling on. I am so so sorry.
Just take care of you, you can't fix him even though you just want - and need - this to be fixed.
It's like watching a plane circle and fall out of the sky. You can see it, you can feel it, it is heart wrenching, but there is nothing you can do.
Let's hope this is a wake up call?
We're all here with you. Keep us posted.
ShootingStar1
Just take care of you, you can't fix him even though you just want - and need - this to be fixed.
It's like watching a plane circle and fall out of the sky. You can see it, you can feel it, it is heart wrenching, but there is nothing you can do.
Let's hope this is a wake up call?
We're all here with you. Keep us posted.
ShootingStar1
jarp, I am totally thinking F THIS and I'm not even in your shoes! It really is pretty much unbelievable, isn't it?
It has to start getting better. There's got to be an end to the madness somewhere.
Wishing you strength to get thru this and hopefully some moments of peace to help you keep your sanity.
It has to start getting better. There's got to be an end to the madness somewhere.
Wishing you strength to get thru this and hopefully some moments of peace to help you keep your sanity.
OMG just like your last post all of this drama is exhausting for me to READ much less experience. What am absolute NIGHTMARE. The trainwreck that you are an unwitting passenger on but can not stop. So sorry merely thoughts of strength coming your way to handle today.
'misadventure' ??
Jarp, I am so, so sorry to hear this latest news.
Jarp, the house is on fire....you must save yourself and your son.
You aren't fighting him----you are fighting the disease. The disease doesn't care a twit about who it destroys. The disease is in charge.
All my empathy.....
dandylion
Jarp, the house is on fire....you must save yourself and your son.
You aren't fighting him----you are fighting the disease. The disease doesn't care a twit about who it destroys. The disease is in charge.
All my empathy.....
dandylion
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Have you ever been in a car accident, where you see it coming, you brace yourself and you put your arm out to hold the passenger in place to help with the impact of the crash? That is what this post reminds me of. You see it coming and need to try to do the brace for yourself and the arm on the passenger to help brace the impact of what is happening. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I am so sorry you have to experience such hurt and worry. Be kind to yourself today and my prayers are being sent to you.
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((((jarp)))) Sending many prayers and warm thoughts your way. Breath deeply. Have you been finding ways to deal with the stress? Your life has many opportunities ahead. This is what his life has become from unhealthy choices that he is making. It's his load to carry, not yours. If just for a moment, or a day, or whatever -- it's okay to let go of that load and let him shoulder it.
They're just precious, aren't they? After all this, I think I'd go for a restraining order or whatever is comparable where you live. If he's bent on self-destruction, you certainly don't want your children around him.
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