Hi all...
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: bay area
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Hi all...
I am here because my drinking is hurting my family.
I have 4 healthy, happy kids (relatively speaking of course) and a loving but sometimes (almost always) distant husband.
I am a problem drinker. I am one of those who don't embrace the term 'alcoholic'. I have / had no physical dependence on alcohol, I just loved being buzzed and sometimes (usually) didn't know when to stop. I have had a serious addiction to opiates for years on top of this that has been keeping my drinking kind of quiet. But when I got off the opiates a few months ago, the dead soldiers started *really* piling up. And my life got out of control. Again.
This gets me in trouble, and I don't want any more trouble. I want a nice life for my family, and I am not facilitating that while I am actively drinking.
I have 29 clean AND sober days today. Which is pretty wild. I haven't had clean and sober time in a decade or so.
I tried AA when I was 21, 50 or 60 meetings in around 30 days. so I am familiar with that. Not sure if I want to try it again, but all my friends are drinkers. My best friend is also my bartender. Literally. So things have to change. I need non- drinking friends.
So I am here.
I feel good and I am happy to be here. Well, pretty happy. You know.
I have 4 healthy, happy kids (relatively speaking of course) and a loving but sometimes (almost always) distant husband.
I am a problem drinker. I am one of those who don't embrace the term 'alcoholic'. I have / had no physical dependence on alcohol, I just loved being buzzed and sometimes (usually) didn't know when to stop. I have had a serious addiction to opiates for years on top of this that has been keeping my drinking kind of quiet. But when I got off the opiates a few months ago, the dead soldiers started *really* piling up. And my life got out of control. Again.
This gets me in trouble, and I don't want any more trouble. I want a nice life for my family, and I am not facilitating that while I am actively drinking.
I have 29 clean AND sober days today. Which is pretty wild. I haven't had clean and sober time in a decade or so.
I tried AA when I was 21, 50 or 60 meetings in around 30 days. so I am familiar with that. Not sure if I want to try it again, but all my friends are drinkers. My best friend is also my bartender. Literally. So things have to change. I need non- drinking friends.
So I am here.
I feel good and I am happy to be here. Well, pretty happy. You know.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
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Hi and congratulations.
In order to stay and live sober I also needed sober friends. My source was people in the fellowship, as they are a great source of hand holding support when needed as well as people who understand each other.
BE WELL
In order to stay and live sober I also needed sober friends. My source was people in the fellowship, as they are a great source of hand holding support when needed as well as people who understand each other.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: bay area
Posts: 59
Thank you all, it means a lot to me. A Lot.
I have thought a lot today about why I said that about the word alcoholic. I have no problem identifying as an addict, but with alcoholic it feels different.
That is partly why I had issues with AA when I was younger, my addictions were (are) very connected to my drinking. Not being able to discuss them was confusing to me.
Just thinking out loud, don't mind me lol.
I have thought a lot today about why I said that about the word alcoholic. I have no problem identifying as an addict, but with alcoholic it feels different.
That is partly why I had issues with AA when I was younger, my addictions were (are) very connected to my drinking. Not being able to discuss them was confusing to me.
Just thinking out loud, don't mind me lol.
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