waterscapes

I was doing so well. I feel miserable and worthless. I hate this disease.

Foolsgold186

We've all been there so don't beat yourself up about it.

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start with today.

You can do it!

L x

Dee74

Hate the addiction not the addict waterscapes
At least you're back and ready for another try.

do you have any idea what happened?

D

FeenixxRising

I've been there many times Waterscapes. But don't give up. Take some time to figure out what made you decide to drink again and go from there. Giving up old habits isn't easy, but it's well worth the effort.

waterscapes

It was all work related. I feel so ashamed of myself right now.

jezza

AAhhh Waterscapes. Don't feel ashamed.. You're here!! & i'm in the same boat at the moment.. Was really angry with myself but as soon as I started posting the anger started to leave..

Eddiebuckle

Waterscapes,

Miserable and worthless is the disease, not you. Pick yourself up and move on. Take an honest look at what your approach was, and what was missing when you took the first drink. You can do this!

waterscapes

I am having withdrawals now. I feel awful. Why did I do this to myself again?

jezza

Drink plenty of water with lemon, take vitamins & try and keep your mind occupied.. Withdrawals will subside just don't dwell on them!! Makes them 10 times worse & obviously if you're that concerned ring your doctor... I know how you're feeling..

waterscapes

I went to inpatient rehab, went to IOP for a month...you would think I would have learned my lesson by now. I cant even think of calling Dr. right now and I have to be at work in 7 hrs.

waterscapes

Trying to stay calm...its so hard.

jezza

They way I look at withdrawal is that it's a good thing. It's the body chucking out nasty toxins which it is... Hence why you should drink lots of water plus an Epsom Salts bath works wonders... Makes you really sweat mind!!!!! Anyway you can get off work today?? Doctor give you a sick note?

waterscapes

I am debating whether I should go to the ER. I am not feeling well at all.

DisplacedGRITS

Better to go and not have needed it than to have needed it and not gone.

jezza

Could be for the best... Just in case!!!

PurpleKnight

Go at it again, you'll get there!!

Gronk

Hey Waterscapes, I am brand new.......the fact you are having this conversation here, and not alone standing in the bathroom avoiding looking at your reflection in the mirror.........speaks volumes.

I am on day 9 (first day 9 ever). On day three I went out and picked up Vitamin B-Complex supplements. I don't know if it helped.......but it didn't hurt. I swear it did though if only psychologically.

If I had a dime for everytime I said what you are saying and feeling.......I'd have a bucket full of dimes.

Me.

ElleDee

Take care of yourself Waterscapes... don't take any chances. If you feel that bad, go to the ER. SR cares about you!

Fly N Buy

Waterscapes,

Sorry you are feeling so guilty - try again!
I read through some of your older posts and it struck me how heartfelt your comments are towards others. You have such a great spirit about you - Amazing!!!

One of my greatest character defects is beating myself up - I was pretty much always able to give everyone else a break except for me. This is as true for me as the sun rising. I was told this by others over the years but never really believed it till I started working AA program. Now, it seems to be the underlying foundation of many issues for me. Go figure - a drunk with low self-esteem, how unusual!!

Please remember you are very special and there is only one of you!!!!! Listen to this song - has made me feel better many times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VAnXURUTp84

SoberHoopsFan

Don't let the shame/guilt consume you. You are back on the horse! Figure out what went wrong and try again. Plenty that relapse never come back, you did. You're strong enough.