Thatdeliveryguy

Reno, Nevada my home city and a city I love dearly but Reno Nevada are the words I've uttered to myself a thousand times. I mean after all, this city is filled with debauchery, drunkenness, gambling, and not so far away legalized prostitution. Gambling in grocery markets, hard liquor everywhere I can even get shots at the grocery market if I play the slots, tilly's what ever you call them. Its there fault for tempting me its not my fault. I have always blamed my location, and truthfully everything but me for my post state of drunkenness and gambling. Guess what, its like a the break up cliche, its not them its me.

I walked into the bars, the clubs, the casino, I actively partook in whatever activity was there, they might have seduced me on some level, but it was me and only me. I chose my destiny, I drank, I gambled I did what ever. Nobody, but me!

Its nice to feel like we're a victim! I love being a victim, I love sitting by and just letting life happen and then blaming anything but me. My real epipheny over the last week, I am my own worst enemy it isn't the bars, the booze the slots the casino's it really is me. I found out this totally fantastical thing this week, I make my own decisions, I choose what, when and where nobody but me! I know infantile thought right, I suppose most get that when they are young, well it took me till I was 34 to get it! What can I say I am a slow learner, tell the the stove is hot, I am the guy that is going to touch to make sure.

So, for now, stay safe and sober, remember you only have you to blame. TDG, you did this to yourself, only blame you!

biminiblue

That is the beginning of acceptance. Once I accepted that it was my "fault" I knew it was my problem to fix.

Good work TDG.

PurpleKnight

Very true, no one drank for us, we lifted the glass at the end of the day, but that also means we can put the glass down!!

Tonymblue

Great, powerful post. You are going to succeed.

soberjuly

Well, I do think it's more out there in Nevada but since I quit drinking, I've realized it just seems to be everywhere. Everywhere I go, the booze is there. Almost every shop I enter.

I used to live in Sweden and I thought it was so annoying because you can ONLY buy alcohol at the state-run Systembolaget. With horrible hours. You can buy weak beer at the grocery store. Systembolaget - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The governments way to control alcohol.

In some, you take a number, fill out an order form, wait to be called, give your order form and someone goes in the back and fills your order. Others, they now have the booze where it is self-serve. I think there are also limits to how much you can buy but it didn't matter to me then because I rarely bought alcohol.

Now I think that would be great to have in the US! You could quit and not see it everywhere! I swear they would sell it at Toys-R-Us if they could!

You really feel like you can't escape it. Well, good job staying sober!

giochick

I lived in Reno for 3 years, and I definitely agree that the whole vibe of the city is very permissive of debauchery. Almost all of the events that happen center around drinking and it has very lax and almost non-existent drinking laws and regulations. When I first moved to Reno from Alaska, I went out for drinks with friends at a bar and kept drinking, waiting for last call (which in Alaska is usually around 12:30 a.m). I kept drinking until I could barely stand, at which point I looked at the time and it was 5 in the morning! My drinking definitely escalated living in a city that sells booze around the clock, but as you pointed out, I have no one to blame for that but myself. Well done on staying sober!

Mountainmanbob

yes - things have went much easier for me since I learned that
I'm the one who I have to keep an eye on
I'm the one who has deceived me the most

yes - the guy in the mirror
remember - keep an eye on him please

MM

tomsteve

good stuff there,TDG. takes a lot of humility to accept responsibility for our actions. it was a hard lesson for me. had to keep hearing my sponsor say (with a smile),"its your lie you gotta live with it" a LOT of times before I got it.
that's when these lines from the BB started making sense:

What usually happens? The show doesn't come off very well. He begins to think life doesn't treat him right. He decides to exert himself more. He becomes, on the next occasion, still more demanding or gracious, as the case may be. Still the play does not suit him. Admitting he may be somewhat at fault, he is sure that other people are more to blame. He becomes angry, indignant, self-pitying. What is his basic trouble? Is he not really a self-seeker even when trying to be kind? Is he not a victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world if he only manages well? Is it not evident to all the rest of the players that these are the things he wants? And do not his actions make each of them wish to retaliate, snatching all they can get out of the show? Is he not, even in his best moments, a producer of confusion rather than harmony?

Selfishness - self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles


So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making

This is the how and why of it. First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn't work.


keep up the self appraisal!!

DoubleDragons

I live in FL. Tonight I was checking out in Costco. I purchased a computer and a printer. The woman checking me out picks up a bottle of red wine and says they are having a great special going on and did I want to buy it. I could not believe it, but it has become the way of the world it seems.

Thirdtime

TDG. I've been struggling lately. The weekend is here, warm weather and such. Your post kept me inlne. And, that is a good thing.

Have not been to Reno, but Vegas.....oie vie. Be well.