60 days
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60 days
The struggles I've had lately have subsided and I think I am back on solid ground again ... just in time to collect my 60-day coin! 
The journey is not easy, but it's very simple. I've got myself in trouble by complicating things, over-thinking things, trying to control things. In a sentence ... by forgetting why I'm here. I'm an alcoholic ... that's why I am here. It may sound strange to read that I "forget" that sometimes, and it's not that I truly forget that I am, but that I forget the depths to which I sank before coming here. My brain tends to block out the bad experiences, feelings, and actions of my active alcoholic years ... I only remember the relief that I felt when I had that first drink ... and I start to miss it. Of course I forget that it's never just one drink, it's many drinks and I forget that I turn into an idiot when I drink, I forget what the hangover feels like, I forget what I looked like and felt like, I forget the anxiety, guilt and desperation. I must NEVER forget all that goes along with that first drink ... because it's never just one drink.
I am gratefully and happily sober today, as for the last 60 days. I'm proud of it, but as I've said before, humble enough to know that I didn't do it alone. Thank you all for your support. I'll never be able to pay it back, so hopefully I can pay it forward and help others as much as you have all helped me. Have a wonderful sober evening, my friends
The journey is not easy, but it's very simple. I've got myself in trouble by complicating things, over-thinking things, trying to control things. In a sentence ... by forgetting why I'm here. I'm an alcoholic ... that's why I am here. It may sound strange to read that I "forget" that sometimes, and it's not that I truly forget that I am, but that I forget the depths to which I sank before coming here. My brain tends to block out the bad experiences, feelings, and actions of my active alcoholic years ... I only remember the relief that I felt when I had that first drink ... and I start to miss it. Of course I forget that it's never just one drink, it's many drinks and I forget that I turn into an idiot when I drink, I forget what the hangover feels like, I forget what I looked like and felt like, I forget the anxiety, guilt and desperation. I must NEVER forget all that goes along with that first drink ... because it's never just one drink.
I am gratefully and happily sober today, as for the last 60 days. I'm proud of it, but as I've said before, humble enough to know that I didn't do it alone. Thank you all for your support. I'll never be able to pay it back, so hopefully I can pay it forward and help others as much as you have all helped me. Have a wonderful sober evening, my friends
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Originally Posted by hokey 
I must NEVER forget all that goes along with that first drink ... because it's never just one drink.
You already pay it back. Love reading your posts here on SR and your 2 months brings a smile to my face 
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