Serotonin

I haven't posted in a while, although I have been reading through the threads. I guess I feel like I don't have much of anything useful to say because I keep having day 1's over and over. Just wanted to wish everyone the best. I have been slipping up from time to time but I'm still fighting. I need to change something in order to keep falling off and drinking again.

Thanks, best wishes everyone.

PurpleKnight

Hey Serotonin, yeap when my plan wasn't working, I needed to change the plan for the results to change!!

You can do it, keep trying and putting the effort in, you'll get there!!

Croissant

Hi Serotonin. Nice to see you around.

Maybe you just aren't ready to stop yet? That is OK too.

It may seem hard, but there's no point continually beating yourself up for day 1s if you keep going back to the store and buying alcohol and not developing a support plan to stop.

The desire to stop may be there, but one has to actually make the plan and do it and commit to staying stopped. No matter what - keeping to ones promise and developing the skills and tools to stay stopped. Until one does that, well of course the drinking will continue.

Dee74

what are some of the ideas you have for changes to make, Serotonin?

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Waterfalls2014

He Serotonin, welcome back. Day 1's count. They can keep going up and up. Coming back and posting is a great thing. Try making a self commitment for 24 hours at a time. You'll be surprised how fast the days add up if you stick to your plan. Do you have any hobbies you can do to change your schedule?

Serenidad

I can relate to your post. I have decided to add some AA into the mix just to see if it helps. I thinking being face to face with people who are struggling like I am may help. Hang in there! You can do it!!!!!!!!

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Thepatman

As long as you are still fighting is what matters.

I added AA and it helped a great deal. I'm the kind of person that needs multiple tools to fight my Alcoholism.

Serotonin

I don't know. Resources are an issue. I'd like to find a long term program (at least 28 days) to get support, but I don't know how.

All I know is that I can't stay sober without help. All my self attempts fail because I don't know how to deal with life and stress without numbing myself.

Nuudawn

Illinois Drug and Alcohol Treatment Centers : SoberRecovery

Perhaps the above SR link is of help.

Serotonin

Thanks. I'm uninsured and waiting to see if I get approved for medicade. I don't know where to go. I basically just want to stop living at this point.

RolyPoly

As long as you have the will Serotonin you will find a way. Hugs.

Lola23

Hi Serotonin,
Just wanted to say I'm right there with you. I had a few decent stretches but something isn't clicking for me for long term change so I'm thinking I need additional support. Somehow...

ScottFromWI

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ElleDee

Serotonin... You're in good company. I've had a lot of Day 1's. Hang in there and don't do anything stupid! But I know how you feel. Life is gift! Do what you need to do to get the help you need. We care about you!!!