DopieDopeMan

But didn't drink it and gave it to my grandfather for his 90th birthday today (he's a navy vet)


Was much easier than I thought

I hadnt been in that particular liquor shop for two months and they joked that they thought I was dead lol (pretty sure it was only half joking though!)

ScottFromWI

Glad you didn't drink it - but to be honest hanging out in a liquor store this early in sobriety isn't exactly a great idea.

DopieDopeMan

The liquor shop doubles as a movie rent place which is what I was originally there for, but yeah I certainly wont be going back there for a while.

KAD

I sometimes wonder if the liquor store clerks around here wonder where I've been when they don't see me for months at a time. This time, I plan on never seeing them again, unless it's somewhere else out in public. Hopefully, they'll even forget my face. (Not likely) I got to the point I was so sick of drinking, I felt instantly depressed just walking into the liquor store. Even the smell of it brought back a flood of unpleasant memories.

aasharon90

Handling any kind of alcohol, holding it
in my hand, I know wont blow up in my
hand, cause when I was working at a
grocery store and was told to go to the
liquor isle and face the bottles, they
didn't blow up or blow me up....

But.....

To be that close to alcohol is giving me
permission that yeah its okay to touch
them and nothing will happen. Then from
there, if I didn't and don't have a solid,
strong recovery program to fall back on,
then if it was that easy to touch it then
I can easily prance my little butt....well
it aint that little........and purchase
poison that im pretty sure would send me
into a spiraling out of control state and
im not sure I have it in me to return to
sanity again in this lifetime.

So....even with 23 yrs sobriety, I think
Ill play it safe and protect my investment
I have made in recovery and stay clear
of that liquor BOMB.

Im staying strong in recovery today.

Croissant

I love your posts Sharon...they remind me this is an investment in myself I have to make forever. Once that overwhelmed me, now I honour that responsibility. It truly is a blessing to have my life back.

KAD

Another thing I've often wondered is if liquor store clerks have, or have once had, problems with alcohol themselves. In some ways, I think if I worked in that environment, I'd always be tempted to drink. But on the other hand, I know from my own history that watching other people drink or observing other alcoholics is a very effective deterrent for me. I'm the sort of person who does not feel tempted when around other people who are drinking, as I did all my drinking alone. I feel disgusted when I watch other drunks.

DopieDopeMan

I agree. I can't even imagine watching people stumble through the door puking everywhere, talking nonsense and with not enough cash to buy anything. Imagine doing that job every day.

Hawkeye13

I go visit my favorite liquor store clerks twice a year.
They are always happy to see me--I would joke around quite a lot back when I drank.
Since I always bought booze on the way home from work, they were used to seeing
me sober anyway and we had some nice exchanges.

One of them told me last time that he missed joking around with me but was glad
I had quit. He's been there over thirty years and has seen lots of folks lose the fight
and was glad I wasn't one of them.

He should know--he used to sell cases of beer and bottles of vodka to my mother
for decades until she could no longer drive to get them. That's how I met him

Ah, breaking the chain of family addiction feels pretty darn good. . .
Glad you are staying sober DDMan

jezza

Yeah.... same here!! I go in to get some baccy & they automatically ask "Vodka??" I actually don't have a problem going in to an off licence... I don't even register the alcohol in there..