Hello - It's Day-1 For Me!
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Hello - It's Day-1 For Me!
Hi Everyone!
Just a quick intro to get me started. Been reading the forums for a while and love the way you guys and gals are there for each other. Really good stuff.
OK then, I'm here because I am a long term [20-year+] addict of many different substances. I've hammered cannabis, indulged in speed, taken MDMA, swallowed many Diazepam, plenty of acid and magic mushrooms, lots of cocaine and have an on and off addiction/habit with opiate based painkillers.
In this twenty year period, I have had a few periods off of substances where I try to 'just quit' with no support, plan or others to talk to, but, as a result of this, I always come back to using. Gradually, slowly but surely, I feel now that because of my addictions/behavior I'm starting to be in danger of losing things that I really love [wife/children].
I won't bore you with many more details, suffice to say that today is day-1 and I'm determined to live my life in recovery. I hope that I can join you lovely people for support and, where appropriate, to give support.
Many thanks for taking the time to read.
FC
Just a quick intro to get me started. Been reading the forums for a while and love the way you guys and gals are there for each other. Really good stuff.
OK then, I'm here because I am a long term [20-year+] addict of many different substances. I've hammered cannabis, indulged in speed, taken MDMA, swallowed many Diazepam, plenty of acid and magic mushrooms, lots of cocaine and have an on and off addiction/habit with opiate based painkillers.
In this twenty year period, I have had a few periods off of substances where I try to 'just quit' with no support, plan or others to talk to, but, as a result of this, I always come back to using. Gradually, slowly but surely, I feel now that because of my addictions/behavior I'm starting to be in danger of losing things that I really love [wife/children].
I won't bore you with many more details, suffice to say that today is day-1 and I'm determined to live my life in recovery. I hope that I can join you lovely people for support and, where appropriate, to give support.
Many thanks for taking the time to read.
FC
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Originally Posted by Purpleknight 
Welcome to the Fourm FusterCluck, cool username!! 
It all starts with a Day 1, great job on making the decision!!
It all starts with a Day 1, great job on making the decision!!
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Welcome! Love the name. I can relate to stopping substances and walking away... Then eventually reaching for something else. I've realized there is a big difference between just stopping something and actively working on your sobriety. Good luck!
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Day 1 is the most important day, and I think the fact you use the word "addict" in your post is so important. You recognize you have a problem.
Great to have you. Thought an avatar of Robert Duval from Apocalypse Now might have fit your alias.
Time to go find me an avatar.
Great to have you. Thought an avatar of Robert Duval from Apocalypse Now might have fit your alias.
Time to go find me an avatar.
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Day-1 has passed cleanly. I've felt a few urges to smoke and a craving to swallow Dihydrocodeine (my wife has them for sciatica). The cravings came, they were not to bad, and then they passed.
Thank you all so much! Seriously, it's nice to know I have somewhere to go and good people to share my journey with. It helps.
Anyway, time for bed
Thank you all so much! Seriously, it's nice to know I have somewhere to go and good people to share my journey with. It helps.
Anyway, time for bed
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I also must admit I was shocked this name was not already taken. Great one! And I originally tried to sign up with the name PaleMoonlight but it was taken. As in "have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight?" Cause that is how I see my opiates. But the only Joker pictures I could find for an avatar were creepy - yours is cool! So probably worked out best for me lol.
Great decisions, so glad you are here. Good job with day 1, but as a 20 year opiate user myself - not sure how high your doses were, but get ready for some physical withdrawals. Depending they can be awful...but you will get through them but then the even harder part will kick in - the mental ones. Ugh.
Wishing you the best on this journey - it will be tough but rewarding!
Great decisions, so glad you are here. Good job with day 1, but as a 20 year opiate user myself - not sure how high your doses were, but get ready for some physical withdrawals. Depending they can be awful...but you will get through them but then the even harder part will kick in - the mental ones. Ugh.
Wishing you the best on this journey - it will be tough but rewarding!
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It's great to meet you FC. I love your positive and determined attitude.
I was a lifelong drinker who leaned on alcohol for everything. I never dreamed that 'my friend' & companion would end up taking me down. I felt all alone with the struggle until I found SR. Who knew there were so many who felt just like I did? You're never alone - and we all get you. Glad to have you here with us. Congratulations on your successful Day 1.
I was a lifelong drinker who leaned on alcohol for everything. I never dreamed that 'my friend' & companion would end up taking me down. I felt all alone with the struggle until I found SR. Who knew there were so many who felt just like I did? You're never alone - and we all get you.
Glad to have you here with us. Congratulations on your successful Day 1.
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Originally Posted by Gilmer
Have you shared your resolve to quit with your wife? Maybe she could lock her pills up. I have a small filebox that locks, and only I have the key. Getting rid of the temptation might help.
Yes she does know and has vowed to keep any of the opiate based medications out of my line of sight. At least for the first while anyway!
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