I cried
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I cried
In front of my dad. I told him I wished my mom would stop bullying me.
He said she doesn't understand and said she is trying to do "tough love".
He seems to think my relapse could be a positive thing as (a) I got back on track quickly and (b) it shows me that I have to be always vigilant and not get cocky.
I am not really following this but I do feel lighter after crying.
He said she doesn't understand and said she is trying to do "tough love".
He seems to think my relapse could be a positive thing as (a) I got back on track quickly and (b) it shows me that I have to be always vigilant and not get cocky.
I am not really following this but I do feel lighter after crying.
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I agree that it could be a positive thing. Ive read some of yer past theards and posts, but not all, so im going to assume that since yer dad said not get cocky that maybe that happened a bit? did ya get the notion you were....hhhhmmm.... cured?healed?? maybe not an alcoholic and could drink a coupe with no ill effect?
I can understand the vigilant thing.for me alcohol is patient. it is waiting for me to dwell on one wrong thought. waiting for me to rest on my laurels. waiting for me. very patiently.
I must remain vigilant and keep myself in check.
heres what I think ya ought to do tetra( don't know iffen ive told you this before):
go look in the mirror at yerself. tell yerself you love you and yer gonna put it he footwork to do what ya gotta do to stop drinking and change you.
and on that changing you part:
what are ya gonna do different now? yer worth it whatever it may entail.
I can understand the vigilant thing.for me alcohol is patient. it is waiting for me to dwell on one wrong thought. waiting for me to rest on my laurels. waiting for me. very patiently.
I must remain vigilant and keep myself in check.
heres what I think ya ought to do tetra( don't know iffen ive told you this before):
go look in the mirror at yerself. tell yerself you love you and yer gonna put it he footwork to do what ya gotta do to stop drinking and change you.
and on that changing you part:
what are ya gonna do different now? yer worth it whatever it may entail.
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Originally Posted by Tetra 
I'm tired of living in fear.
my whole life was driven by fear. I didn't really see it until I started lookin at myself and saw what made me tick( didn't do that til stopped drinkin). I was quite amazed to see every aspect of my life was drivin by one form of fear or another.
found me a great solution for it,too!!
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I got tired of living in fear too. It's exhausting.
I think you have a great opportunity now to be whoever the heck you want to be Tetra.
First step is getting a job and a little financial independence.
D
I think you have a great opportunity now to be whoever the heck you want to be Tetra.
First step is getting a job and a little financial independence.
D
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Crying and fear are reasonable reactions to some situations. The first thing is not to drink to hide from or act out against the emotions. Then, if you're living in a situation that often provokes crying and fear, maybe it's time to start taking first steps to move away from that situation -- ? 
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