Day 2 + AA Meeting 2
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Day 2 + AA Meeting 2
Well folks day 2 after a nightmarish relapse. Detox last night was, pure hell.
During my relapse, on the Saturday I had dragged myself to my first AA meeting, drunk. I enjoyed it a lot. But going drunk, really? Who would do that but me.
Now that I'm on day 2, I dragged myself to another AA meeting/group. Let me tell you that it was even better! Once of the member really was at my level on the smoke break and the meeting groove was really awesome.
After the smoke break I saw a lady selling the big book. Had no money on me so I said I would get it next meeting. At the end of the meeting she gave me the book! I nearly fell on my back. She kept refusing that I run to a bank to pay.
Suffice to say that I'm freakin in. If this reflects the movement, me like it, me like it a lot!
I'm shy as hell by nature to speak to new people. I realized tonight that is probably is one of the reason why I started drinking.
I don't mean to be an AA preacher, but if it can work for someone that had tried everything as I had, then I think it's worth sharing my experience.
But I realized also I was being stubborn when folks here told me it could work. After all I could fix this Alcoholism of mine right? I was wrong. It took all my guts to go tonight, but I forced myself to come out of the house.
Yikes, this is too long, sorry ;-)
During my relapse, on the Saturday I had dragged myself to my first AA meeting, drunk. I enjoyed it a lot. But going drunk, really? Who would do that but me.
Now that I'm on day 2, I dragged myself to another AA meeting/group. Let me tell you that it was even better! Once of the member really was at my level on the smoke break and the meeting groove was really awesome.
After the smoke break I saw a lady selling the big book. Had no money on me so I said I would get it next meeting. At the end of the meeting she gave me the book! I nearly fell on my back. She kept refusing that I run to a bank to pay.
Suffice to say that I'm freakin in. If this reflects the movement, me like it, me like it a lot!
I'm shy as hell by nature to speak to new people. I realized tonight that is probably is one of the reason why I started drinking.
I don't mean to be an AA preacher, but if it can work for someone that had tried everything as I had, then I think it's worth sharing my experience.
But I realized also I was being stubborn when folks here told me it could work. After all I could fix this Alcoholism of mine right? I was wrong. It took all my guts to go tonight, but I forced myself to come out of the house.
Yikes, this is too long, sorry ;-)
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh 
I am proud of you, Patman. Hope the withdrawals ease up for you soon.
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Really glad you have found something you can latch onto with AA. I almost went to a meeting tonight myself. I got off early from work and I was suddenly looking at a rather large expanse of time. I have been battling lethargy so neither chores nor exercise was beckoning (although it really, really should be). I stopped off at the drugstore on the way home. I stared wistfully for a moment at the wine store adjacent..but it was only a moment and it passed. I came home and played around here on SR awhile. I toyed with taking myself out for dinner but I wasn't that into it. I called my sister and she wasn't home from work yet. I needed to go to another store for some hair stuff but simply couldn't motivate myself..
I started to miss my ex as he has been my constant companion for the past great while. I know that was not a good idea...just sayin'. I kept thinking bout that AA meeting but there is a woman I work with who I know attends that meeting. For my own reasons, I am not quite sure..yet ..if I am comfortable with her knowing of my issue right now.
Anyways...I then had the banner idea of going to the casino. Our local casino is not licensed so that's not a worry.
So..ya I went and dropped more money there than I am comfortable with. That will do me for a long while in that respect.
So ya...I am pretty sure I have some room in my life for AA also. Quite simply..I need some sober friends. I need local friends...period. The ones I do have are very busy with husbands and kids. I need someone in a similar boat than me.
So ...I need to fill some space and meet some sober folks.
I think I will find a meeting tomorrow.
It can't hurt us...can it T-Pat?
I started to miss my ex as he has been my constant companion for the past great while. I know that was not a good idea...just sayin'. I kept thinking bout that AA meeting but there is a woman I work with who I know attends that meeting. For my own reasons, I am not quite sure..yet ..if I am comfortable with her knowing of my issue right now.
Anyways...I then had the banner idea of going to the casino. Our local casino is not licensed so that's not a worry.
So..ya I went and dropped more money there than I am comfortable with. That will do me for a long while in that respect.
So ya...I am pretty sure I have some room in my life for AA also. Quite simply..I need some sober friends. I need local friends...period. The ones I do have are very busy with husbands and kids. I need someone in a similar boat than me.
So ...I need to fill some space and meet some sober folks.
I think I will find a meeting tomorrow.
It can't hurt us...can it T-Pat?
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when i crawled into an aa room i had no money, a little old lady gave me a big book as i had no money to pay for one she just told me in the future when things change in my life as they will i can then put the money into the pot for the book, which i did
but that one act of kindness lead on to many other acts of kindness i got from aa members who bought me food etc they just looked after me in my early days i can never repay them and they dont want repaying
all they ask of me is to pass it on to others
which i do today and everyday i can
glad you found the fellowship of aa and the real fellowship the one were people go that extra mile to help
keep coming back my friend and well done for finding the courage needed to go along
but that one act of kindness lead on to many other acts of kindness i got from aa members who bought me food etc they just looked after me in my early days i can never repay them and they dont want repaying
all they ask of me is to pass it on to others
which i do today and everyday i can
glad you found the fellowship of aa and the real fellowship the one were people go that extra mile to help
keep coming back my friend and well done for finding the courage needed to go along
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Originally Posted by Thepatman
if it can work for someone that had tried everything as I had, then I think it's worth sharing my experience.
Congratulations and keep coming back!
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Going to meetings drunk or hungover is actually quite common place. I have been known to do it a time or two, or 48 times or more.
We are not unique here, we might think we are, but we are not.
If you want help, there is help to be had, just reach out.
We are not unique here, we might think we are, but we are not.
If you want help, there is help to be had, just reach out.
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Congrats Pat ! Thanks for posting this. It reminds me of several times in my journey as well. I too went to meetings totally drunk, obnoxious and really sick and desperate. I even got into an altercation after one of them, drunk. I had no where else to go that I was really allowed.
Even though there were many many times I hated them, especially the people, I went back, because there was no where else to go, besides the drunk tank, detox or psych ward, all of which I went to and there was often no room left for me there either. So, I went back to AA, shivering many times. It was exactly what I needed at the time.
Nowadays, I go to meetings to get grounded, because it's a place, regardless of my opinions and value systems, for me to be completely me and talk about my alcoholism - and it does not matter what anyone thinks or says. I still get irritated by what people say at meetings, including giving advice when not warranted. However, those are opportunities for me to practice boundaries, tolerance & acceptance.
So, congratulations ! Sobriety is Peaceful and Beautiful and Abundant
Even though there were many many times I hated them, especially the people, I went back, because there was no where else to go, besides the drunk tank, detox or psych ward, all of which I went to and there was often no room left for me there either. So, I went back to AA, shivering many times. It was exactly what I needed at the time.
Nowadays, I go to meetings to get grounded, because it's a place, regardless of my opinions and value systems, for me to be completely me and talk about my alcoholism - and it does not matter what anyone thinks or says. I still get irritated by what people say at meetings, including giving advice when not warranted. However, those are opportunities for me to practice boundaries, tolerance & acceptance.
So, congratulations ! Sobriety is Peaceful and Beautiful and Abundant
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Very glad to read this Pat. You can keep that good feeling you had writing this. Read the book and keep going to meetings. Get phone numbers. Use them when an urge hits and keep posting here. You never have to drink again.
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