should have been day 7.....
should have been day 7.....
I was doing so well, got to day 6..... Saturday night.... had a good day( only 1 small disagreement.... ) then on way home we went to supermarket to buy tea..... I was hoping he wouldn't want wine..... I did however manage to persuaded him 1 bottle not 2..... car ride home I tried and tried to convince myself I wouldnt have any........
but I did I did manage to give hubby the big glass and for a chañge I had the smaller 1......
still very disappointed in myself....... now do I carry on beating myself up or try to let it go and move on? Sorry guys
but I did I did manage to give hubby the big glass and for a chañge I had the smaller 1......
still very disappointed in myself....... now do I carry on beating myself up or try to let it go and move on? Sorry guys
Guest
Join Date: May 2014
Location: London, UK
Posts: 1,086
Hi Petals,
Let go of the guilt! I relapsed recently and honestly, I can't get in a time machine and change it so there's no point in dwelling on it. That being said, I have been writing a lot and during meetings I've been figuring out what went wrong. It's really interesting because I always thought I dealt with stress effectively in my sobriety, but I've realised that I just hold it all in then I explode and self-medicate. So in that sense, taking stock is good but certainly move on. It's a new day!
Let go of the guilt! I relapsed recently and honestly, I can't get in a time machine and change it so there's no point in dwelling on it. That being said, I have been writing a lot and during meetings I've been figuring out what went wrong. It's really interesting because I always thought I dealt with stress effectively in my sobriety, but I've realised that I just hold it all in then I explode and self-medicate. So in that sense, taking stock is good but certainly move on. It's a new day!
Petals - let it go and move forward. Can't change the past.
I just threw away 20 days. Back on day 2. I know the horrible guilty feeling. I have relapsed several times myself.
But please don't dwell. Figure out what didn't work this time and make some changes to become stronger to fight it out next time that stupid AV comes knocking..!
Glad you came back and posted. I spend alot of time on here and the advice of others that have been though this is just priceless to me.
All the best!
I just threw away 20 days. Back on day 2. I know the horrible guilty feeling. I have relapsed several times myself.
But please don't dwell. Figure out what didn't work this time and make some changes to become stronger to fight it out next time that stupid AV comes knocking..!
Glad you came back and posted. I spend alot of time on here and the advice of others that have been though this is just priceless to me.
All the best!
thanks, i did think about not coming back to post but that would have been very silly.
re. hubby- he is obviously aware that i drink too much but cant quite grasp the fact that i don't know when to stop because he can..... should really have a heart to heart with him but as hes just started working away now is not the time because him being away is very difficult for both of us and i don't want to add to his worries.
am just going to do it alone(with you guys here of course) for the time being.
i had an ap on my phone, well a day counter really.... it was doing great then yesterday it reset itself to 0.... i should have tried harder......
re. hubby- he is obviously aware that i drink too much but cant quite grasp the fact that i don't know when to stop because he can..... should really have a heart to heart with him but as hes just started working away now is not the time because him being away is very difficult for both of us and i don't want to add to his worries.
am just going to do it alone(with you guys here of course) for the time being.
i had an ap on my phone, well a day counter really.... it was doing great then yesterday it reset itself to 0.... i should have tried harder......
So very glad you came back to post, petals! This is the place you need to be
Those 5 days weren't wasted. You will have learned so much from them. Now you've had a slip, but you've got straight back on it - that shows courage and determination.
Maybe post here before you take that first sip next time? We'll all rally round and support you!
Those 5 days weren't wasted. You will have learned so much from them. Now you've had a slip, but you've got straight back on it - that shows courage and determination.
Maybe post here before you take that first sip next time? We'll all rally round and support you!
No need to apologize to us. We understand. Just get back to sober - whatever it takes.
Think of a way to avoid this mistake going forward.
Maybe he can get on board with supporting you and come to realization that his drinking is not good for you. If you discuss this as a team he should understand the struggles that we go through some times. Once you get a good foundation he should be able to have his glass of wine without it bothering you. But now he should support you.
I know that everyone is going to tell me it is your responsibility - heard it all already.
If he can't 'not' drink then tell him you can't be in his presence when he does. At least for now.
Good luck. Stay strong.
Think of a way to avoid this mistake going forward.
Maybe he can get on board with supporting you and come to realization that his drinking is not good for you. If you discuss this as a team he should understand the struggles that we go through some times. Once you get a good foundation he should be able to have his glass of wine without it bothering you. But now he should support you.
I know that everyone is going to tell me it is your responsibility - heard it all already.
If he can't 'not' drink then tell him you can't be in his presence when he does. At least for now.
Good luck. Stay strong.
Welcome back. If beating oneself after a post-quit drinking were required I'd be one big welt. Keep searching for your sober path and one day you will find it. I did. It took me a long time, but I did.
Good Luck! You can do this.
If this event ends up being one point on a general trend line to success over time, there's no reason to beat yourself up about it. As the meme goes, "this is only a setback!" Figure out how to avoid this in the future and stick to it. I found that most of my drinking fell into just a few "buckets", so plugging a few different holes equated to a lot of improvement.
Now if you find yourself repeating this scenario over and over, well that might be time for kicking your own ass a little bit.
Now if you find yourself repeating this scenario over and over, well that might be time for kicking your own ass a little bit.
as we have seen so many times before as self deception creeps back in
best to put the plug in the jug let it go and move on
MM
Hang in there petals. I went almost 8 months and let one drink spiral out of control for five days straight. It can really sneak up on you if you let your guard down for even a second. I learned that the hard way.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)