sam082602

Had a really bad day/night yesterday because of all the damn mental/verbal/emotional abuse that Russell was dishing out to me!! I just cried and cried and kept on crying until my sleeping pill knocked me out. Russell woke in his usual apologetic mood this morning which is cool but hell the "honeymoon stage" only lasts an average of a couple of weeks. I love him and I won't leave him but maybe ya'll could pray for God's will in Russell's and my life because I must be praying wrong or something!! I am still clean & sober with 686 days but man, my heart feels so damn heavy today...yesterday was worse than it has been since he sobered up on 02/25/04...and he says that he is going back out as soon as he is off of probation in Sept., 2004 but then he says that he is going to stay clean & sober...I feel like I am going crazy and that I should just locked myself up in a mental institution &/or go back to my ex-husband that just beat me all the time!! Damn, I love Russell too damn much to leave him!! Please pray for us so that maybe my prayers will be stronger if combined with all of ya'll's!! Thanks & Smile!! Remember to celebrate all of our sobrietys at all times!! Love ya'll!! :ilu

2dayzmuse

sam082602

Thanks!!

Anna

I hope things work out for you and Russell.

Prayers coming your way.

Anna

sam082602

Much appreciated!! Thanks

2dayzmuse

Sam, your very welcome. Alot more will be coming from the others.

Take care,

Talia :laugh2:

2stop

(((((((((((((((Sam & Russell))))))))))))))))))
Prayers are with you both.............(((warm hugs)))

MootPoint

(((((((((( sam and russell ))))))))))

prayers your way!

KelKel

((((Sam & Russell)))

coming your way...

Little Missy

Hugs to you Sam!! Prayers going up for you!

Missy

Chy

(((Sam)))

triegger

Sam consider yourself and Russell added to my prayer list.

Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight,

Triegger