Going back to AA
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Going back to AA
After weeks of debating back and forth and back and forth (probably driving people on here nuts!) I have decided to re-commit to AA. I stayed sober for almost 6 years before relapsing last October. I stopped going to AA at about year 3 and just stayed abstinent. I think not going to meetings caught up with me which is why I relapsed. I know not everyone uses AA and that's ok but for me...I need to be around other alcoholics face-to-face. I can't do this alone. I'm at the end of my rope. I went out last night and got wasted! My life is out of control! I have too much to live for and way to much to lose. I'm scared. Scared of failing. I know it's going to be hard but my only other choice is probably death. I'm too young to die. :-( Alcoholism sucks but I can't change it. Time for acceptance. I just want to be happy & at peace. That's ALL I want. I feel like it's been so long since I truly smiled.
Thx all! God Bless!
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It is absolutely essential to accept 'what is' for simple mental health reasons, and especially important for us who are dealing with addiction. Acceptance that you no longer drink is the next step and it seems to continue to be an issue for you. That stuff needs some hard thinking.
I wish you well, Serenidad.
I wish you well, Serenidad.
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Hi.
“I think not going to meetings caught up with me which is why I relapsed.”
I relapsed too often because my built in forgetter wasn’t refreshed often enough by going to meetings and seeing what happens when people stop going to meetings. Too often it’s not a nice result at all. After a lot of sober years I still get to 3-5 meetings a week and am still comfortable in my own skin, most of the time.
BE WELL
“I think not going to meetings caught up with me which is why I relapsed.”
I relapsed too often because my built in forgetter wasn’t refreshed often enough by going to meetings and seeing what happens when people stop going to meetings. Too often it’s not a nice result at all. After a lot of sober years I still get to 3-5 meetings a week and am still comfortable in my own skin, most of the time.
BE WELL
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Originally Posted by IOAA2 
Hi. “I think not going to meetings caught up with me which is why I relapsed.” I relapsed too often because my built in forgetter wasn’t refreshed often enough by going to meetings and seeing what happens when people stop going to meetings. Too often it’s not a nice result at all. After a lot of sober years I still get to 3-5 meetings a week and am still comfortable in my own skin, most of the time. BE WELL
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You're already on your way to peace, just by accepting it and humbling yourself to go back to AA is amazing and says so much!!! Congrats! AA has saved my life!
And yes, alcoholism sucks, but I'm glad and grateful today for what it's taught me.
And yes, alcoholism sucks, but I'm glad and grateful today for what it's taught me.
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Serenidad, do you know what happened?
I stopped drinking when I was in my early thirties and didn't pick up for 18 years. I never went to AA the first time, I just was tired of the crazy and decided to quit.
I've been going to AA meetings for four months, but seriously have doubts that it is for me long term. I don't want to ever drink again, but I'm not enjoying meetings either.
If you could talk a little bit about why you stopped going to meetings and using AA?
I stopped drinking when I was in my early thirties and didn't pick up for 18 years. I never went to AA the first time, I just was tired of the crazy and decided to quit.
I've been going to AA meetings for four months, but seriously have doubts that it is for me long term. I don't want to ever drink again, but I'm not enjoying meetings either.
If you could talk a little bit about why you stopped going to meetings and using AA?
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I attended AA meetings for a while for the fellowship of other alcoholics. I found it helpful. I would have tried other meetings in my area (SMART, Lifering), but AA has the market cornered in my neck of the woods.
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One of my major hurdles was acceptance that AA works if you let go absolutely. Half measures availed us nothing. When I decided I was all in life became so much easier and today I can say with absolute certainty that AA saved my life
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Originally Posted by MIRecovery
One of my major hurdles was acceptance that AA works if you let go absolutely. Half measures availed us nothing. When I decided I was all in life became so much easier and today I can say with absolute certainty that AA saved my life
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Have the same thot process as you do. There's no way I can still be sober on my own today. AA has been my new family & what a joy it is even when goin thru rough times to hear voices sharing that they went even thru worse & didn't pick up over it. If I lie down in the middle of the bed instead of the edge, then I won't fall off
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