Day 2 newbee report - Newly Sober, Terrified
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Day 2 newbee report - Newly Sober, Terrified
Hi all, wanted to share/purge my story.
Began drinking steadily in my early 20's after work to 'unwind'. Then I was in a car accident, diagnosed with PTSD, and for a while drank through the day and night to calm my nerves. I eventually got a hold of it and tapered back, started to live a healthier lifestyle; walking, hiking, biking, yoga, pilates, etc., got into super shape, but still allowed myself to drink at night as a reward. I had periods of sobriety, though never for long.
Last year I discovered my husband has been lying and cheating throughout our whole relationship. Super depressed, I kicked it up a notch and went down the rabbit hole. No interest in being healthy, no interest in life. The last six weeks have been ridiculous, day and night drinking.
A couple days ago the top and outside of my foot went semi-numb, and it woke me up. I'm terrified it's permanent nerve damage or something else serious. I made a doc appointment for next week. I pray to god it goes away.
Day 2 and feeling strong about that. Wanting to be healthy must mean I have an interest in life again.
Can't seem to let go of the scumbag though, I know he's still lying to me. Codependent perhaps.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
Began drinking steadily in my early 20's after work to 'unwind'. Then I was in a car accident, diagnosed with PTSD, and for a while drank through the day and night to calm my nerves. I eventually got a hold of it and tapered back, started to live a healthier lifestyle; walking, hiking, biking, yoga, pilates, etc., got into super shape, but still allowed myself to drink at night as a reward. I had periods of sobriety, though never for long.
Last year I discovered my husband has been lying and cheating throughout our whole relationship. Super depressed, I kicked it up a notch and went down the rabbit hole. No interest in being healthy, no interest in life. The last six weeks have been ridiculous, day and night drinking.
A couple days ago the top and outside of my foot went semi-numb, and it woke me up. I'm terrified it's permanent nerve damage or something else serious. I made a doc appointment for next week. I pray to god it goes away.
Day 2 and feeling strong about that. Wanting to be healthy must mean I have an interest in life again.
Can't seem to let go of the scumbag though, I know he's still lying to me. Codependent perhaps.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
It was a swollen ankle that got me googling and ending up here at SR -- foot trouble can be a life-line! I've been sober for 15 months thanks to the support here, the same can happen to you.
Magsie
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 26,665
Hi Sunnygal, welcome to the forum, lots of wonderful people here with similar experiences.
Pleased you made a doctors appt.
You seem strong in your resolve, good for you, you are the most important person to look after at this time.
Pleased you made a doctors appt.
You seem strong in your resolve, good for you, you are the most important person to look after at this time.
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