Grateful NA and happy to be here!
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Grateful NA and happy to be here!
Hello,
I have been clean from Norco since 5/24/2014, after taking Norco for 3 months. I had a previous addiction for about 12 months to Lortab about a year earlier, and had been clean for about 8 months before injuring my arm. I've just finished a months worth of a withdrawal aid that includes daytime and night time recovery pills. They must have really been helping me, because I ran out a few days ago and OMG...I am hot all of the time, legs are cramping, I am restless and have bad anxiety the past two days. I also feel very, very insecure right now and am afraid of being alone...even though I am happily married. I feel so very useless right now because I have no motivation to put makeup on, fix myself up or do any housework. I don't even want to babysit my grandkids right now. I cannot believe how much better I did while taking the withdrawal supplements? I have ordered some more.
Right now...all I can say is that I feel like a failure and I want to want to feel like doing things...but I don't. I miss the way Norco made me feel, but I also see that it was causing my social anxiety to be worse, and affecting my daily life in many way. I could never feel fully rested and barely had the energy to teach my fitness classes. Finally, I had a revelation...I was high on Norco most of the time because I took it every 4 hours...just like the script said I could. I took it whether I was in pain or not. I think the Norco was making me not want to do anything but escape and stay at home. This is hard to admit because my son is approaching a sober date of 1 year in July. Al Anon has saved me where my son is concerned, but I stopped going around the time I injured myself and started taking Norco again. I would like to get to a point in my life where I feel secure without the "high" that hydro gives. And I am pretty much not making sense here, because when I take Hydro...it makes me feel useless and insecure.
That's all I've got right now...grateful to be here!
Clatono
I have been clean from Norco since 5/24/2014, after taking Norco for 3 months. I had a previous addiction for about 12 months to Lortab about a year earlier, and had been clean for about 8 months before injuring my arm. I've just finished a months worth of a withdrawal aid that includes daytime and night time recovery pills. They must have really been helping me, because I ran out a few days ago and OMG...I am hot all of the time, legs are cramping, I am restless and have bad anxiety the past two days. I also feel very, very insecure right now and am afraid of being alone...even though I am happily married. I feel so very useless right now because I have no motivation to put makeup on, fix myself up or do any housework. I don't even want to babysit my grandkids right now. I cannot believe how much better I did while taking the withdrawal supplements? I have ordered some more.
Right now...all I can say is that I feel like a failure and I want to want to feel like doing things...but I don't. I miss the way Norco made me feel, but I also see that it was causing my social anxiety to be worse, and affecting my daily life in many way. I could never feel fully rested and barely had the energy to teach my fitness classes. Finally, I had a revelation...I was high on Norco most of the time because I took it every 4 hours...just like the script said I could. I took it whether I was in pain or not. I think the Norco was making me not want to do anything but escape and stay at home. This is hard to admit because my son is approaching a sober date of 1 year in July. Al Anon has saved me where my son is concerned, but I stopped going around the time I injured myself and started taking Norco again. I would like to get to a point in my life where I feel secure without the "high" that hydro gives. And I am pretty much not making sense here, because when I take Hydro...it makes me feel useless and insecure.
That's all I've got right now...grateful to be here!
Clatono
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