Been a long week
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Been a long week
Coming to the end of my first week sober in a long long time. Its been a bit of a roller coaster. Mixture of bursts of energy, which is long overdue, total slumps when I was so tired I just wanted to sleep and not being able to sleep when I went to bed. Sweats,anxiety, headaches etc. On my last day drinking I polished off 2 bottles of wine and1/2 of vodka, that was only last Monday, I almost have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming.
Was this week worth it, absolutely, every bl**dy bit.
In some ways the hardest part of this week and I guess weeks to come is recognizing that negative voice, my AV, who criticizes me, condemns me and complains about everything, tries to do me down and put me back to last Monday where the only solace is in a bottle. Each time this week that I have had a negative thought of any kind Ive managed to banish it for what it is, nothing but that, just a negative thought with no mass no substance, no value.
Something is changing in me, its only taken 30 years, but it feels permanent, I really hope so.
Thanks
Was this week worth it, absolutely, every bl**dy bit.
In some ways the hardest part of this week and I guess weeks to come is recognizing that negative voice, my AV, who criticizes me, condemns me and complains about everything, tries to do me down and put me back to last Monday where the only solace is in a bottle. Each time this week that I have had a negative thought of any kind Ive managed to banish it for what it is, nothing but that, just a negative thought with no mass no substance, no value.
Something is changing in me, its only taken 30 years, but it feels permanent, I really hope so.
Thanks
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