christimc

Sorry been away guys but im still hete, still trying. After i killed my cat by stepping on the poor little guys neck, i drank. Alot. The ,memories of the blood n twitching were too much n i gave in. Hated myself for the next day. Ashamed doesnt cover it but im sober one week today. Going bk to aa tonight. This will be round 4 of sobriety but whose counting.
Im proud at least my will to be sober is still here.

doggonecarl

Sorry about your kitten. And sorry to read that it led to drinking. Glad you are back.

Coldfusion

Christi, make it so that your cat did not die in vain. Stay sober!

Share at the meeting about your cat. You will get a lot of support.

cougfan

That is brutal, so sorry. be strong!

ScottFromWI

Glad you are back Cristi, congrats on the week.

Nonsensical

Where there's a will, there's a way.

Go get it.

Tamerua

Hang in there, it will get better.

Jupiters

glad to see you're back
and sounds like you have a plan in place.

firstymer

A few years ago, a little boy and his grandma were taking his beautiful new puppy for a walk along the side of a rural road. As I drove toward them in my SUV I could not tell that the puppy had been taken off its leash. The sun was setting and there was a lot of glare on my windshield. The puppy continued to follow closely next to the feet of the boy as they walked. Suddenly, out of nowhere, a rabbit streaked across the road, in front of my car. The puppy chased after it and I struck and killed the dog. I had no chance to hit the brakes until it was too late.

The little boy was beside himself. "Why?!" He kept saying. "Why couldn't it have been me?!" In his grief, he was actually willing to switch lives with his dead puppy. Imagine that grief.

It has taken a long time for me to get over this death that I caused, even though I caused it by accident.

I wish you peace and comfort. It does get better.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back!!