Cecil

Hi. I just wanted to introduce myself. I tried to stop drinking on June 1st and have been lurking around this page reading posts since then. Unfortunately I got to day 11 and yesterday my AV convinced me it would be a good idea to have a couple drinks, which of course turned into a fall-down, black-out binge. I'm posting for the first time in the hopes that next time my AV starts to seem like it's making sense, I'll maybe come onto SR to post instead of acting on the impulse. I went to an aa meeting this afternoon, and plan to start going daily to a meeting that meets mon-fri on Monday. This isn't my first attempt to get sober so I'm feeling fearful that I'll never get it, but anyways, all I can do now is try again. Thank you all for the support.

Anna

Welcome, and I'm glad you're trying again.

Amester

Welcome!! You've come to an amazing community of understanding, encouragement and support. Sounds like you're already making some good steps in the right direction! Try not to be discouraged with yourself. It took me a long time and a lot of painful relapses to get to where I am today, I may finally be starting to "get it." we are all here for you, post away!

least

Welcome to the family. It took me more than one try to get and stay sober, but now it feels totally normal to live sober. I'm glad you've joined us. There's a ton of support here.

Steve027

Welcome and you most certainly can do it this time round

JJ9

I know you can do it! This is my day 2 so I am right there with ya! You are exactly right, all you can do now is try again. Do not even think about past attempts just stay in the present and take it one day/hour/moment at a time. Best wishes!

AlcoholFree66

Hi Cecil - sounds like a really good plan - SR provides enormous support for me and it has been really helpful to communicate if struggling with the temptation to drink. Post here, get feedback and the power of the temptation subsides.

Cecil

Thank you all. I've felt so ashamed and remorseful today. It means a lot to know there's so many supportive people out there. At the end of the aa meeting today, a kindly elderly woman came up and asked me my name. She said, "that's a beautiful name, and I'll never remember it. What's your nickname?" Lol She gave me a hug and said she hoped to see me at meetings, "lots and lots". I've been so full of self- loathing lately, the kindness of strangers means so much. Thank you!

Steve027

Great work going to AA

Cecil

Thanks all. I've been reading posts all night, feeling sad because there's been no response to mine after the awesome ones right after posting. I know, poor me leads to pour me. Just how I'm feeling.

pupkin

Here's one for ya, Cecil. Great job so far--you've got the right idea, jumping in here. It really helps me. Keep it up!

Nuudawn

Hey hey Cecil. I just saw your thread...and I'm really glad you're here.
I'm trying to get back from relapse of almost 8 months ago. I got 9 days in..and I drank. I got another week in...and I drank.
Now I have almost 3 weeks. I think I'm getting some real good momentum here...but the reality is I have to wake up tomorrow and just get to the end of it sober. That's it..that simple.
We just keep quitting until we get it right and let life back in... real life.

liss74

We only fail if we stop trying. Welcome back x

AlcoholFree66

Hey Cecil - I'm off to bed soon but very glad you're here - chat tomorrow!

IOAA2

Hi Cecil and welcome. My going to AA was the best thing I’ve ever did for myself. It’s great to be among people who understand. Unfortunately it took awhile for it to stick because I was undisciplined, dishonest with myself about my drinking and wanted to drink more than I wanted to be sober. I luckily got sober when I saw what was happening to me as I slid deeper into my heaviest drinking, just as the old timers warned it will never get better. Life/me did slowly get better once stopped and followed directions even if I didn’t like them.
Hang in there as we may be in our last relapse as there is no guarantee of another recovery.

BE WELL

Lola23

Hi Cecil -- Newbie here too so I can't offer any advice. But certainly we can gain something from knowing others are going through the same thing. Keep posting here and I will too!

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!! it's great to have you onboard!!

HeadLump

Welcome aboard, Cecil This is a great day to start trying again - and this time, you have all of with you, cheering you on! :

Luper

Good job! I'm only on day 2 once again, so I am right there with ya!

Take one day at a time...or one minute, as I'm doing..

aasharon90

I first got fully sober in rehab after my family
intervened on me getting me help I needed
at that time in my life. It took them seeing
how low I got, how sick I was to seek out help
for me when I couldn't do it myself.

In rehab, a safe haven, secured place where
alcohol was not available to reach for while
getting all those poisonous toxin I had in my
body out and all those up and down emotions
flaring up.

28 days allowed me to hear and learn some
helpful information about addiction and how
it was affecting my mind, body and soul as
well as others around me.

28 day was merely a drop in the bucket
so to speak of sobriety, because it would
take more than just not drinking each day
to achieve a sturdy solid foundation to begin
living my life upon for many more days sober.

I went to many many meeting, all at different
times, different locations in order to listen, learn,
absorb and finally apply a program of recovery
shared by many who also learned themselves
on how to stay sober as long as they had in order
to achieve health, happy honest lives.

If you can learn some little something in
recovery and apply it to one single day
that will help you not drink this very day,
then you have accomplished something
HUGE. HUGE. Because as we learn, it is
not easy for an alcoholic who can not drink
successfully try to control their drinking.

So one day not ingesting poison in our
bodies is what many will say is a MIRACLE.

If you stay sober one day , then you wake
up sober the next, repeat all you did to stay
sober the day before and continue on not
worrying what tomorrow will be.

I clung on to all those "old-timers" as we
call them that continue to suit up and show
up helping us each day teaching us new ways
to remain sober till I accumulated some sober
time then turned around and began sharing
with others following me.

I had to remind myself that I could't remain
sober, healthy, happy and honest in my own
life if I didn't learn to give back for all the yrs.
people carried me in recover till I was strong
enough to stand on my own.

If you've got the willingness, then ur on your
way.