Elisabeth888

Well, it's a long story, but it didn't work out with that roommate. Let's just say I need to pray for her.

It was not an easy journey out west. My stepdad flew out and we drove my car with my cat. dog, and everything I could cram in the car. (It's a camry)

I drank the whole way because I basically had to. It took three days, stopping each night and I basically cried the entire time. I am sure I was a joy to my stepdad.

We got here and I drank for four more days, calling detoxes the entire time, talking to insurance companies- mine is changing through medicare but it is not effective until july 1. Anyway, it was a pain in the ass. But I tried every avenue and ALL the beds were full. So on June 7, I said take me to the emergency room. I am done. I am miserable. Alcohol has taken so much from me, but it is not going to take my life.

It was like a light bulb went off. They gave me librium, told me not to drink and sent me on my way. And you know what? I didn't! That stuff works. I slept and generally felt at ease except for a little shakiness. Today is DAY 7!!!

I am going to meetings every day, I got a sponsor, and I am going to a potluck speaker meeting tonight.

Now my next worries are getting a fair share of our assets out of my divorce. He doesn't want me to get a lawyer and my whole family says he is trying to rip me off. He said all my "dirty laundry" will come out which consists of being a bipolar alcoholic with three DUIs, 8 detoxes, being on disability.

Then I need to get my own place. Portland is expensive.

I am trying to stay in today. I am so much happier sober. I don't want anyone who does not want me. I just want to get it over with and move on with my life.

Peace

Dee74

I'm so glad to see you back on deck Elizabeth
I hear Portland is pretty cool

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PurpleKnight

Great job on Day 7!! That's fantastic!!

Sounds like the start of a new beginning, a Sober, happier one!!

Nuudawn

Oh my...I would loooooove to live in Portland!
Hmmmm...maybe I could wangle a U.S. work visa and come move in with ya.

So glad you're back in sobriety Liz.

ultradad

Congrats on day 7!!! And on getting to meetings and a sponsor!!!

least

Congrats on the first of many sober weeks.

Thepatman

You are doing great! You made a huge move going to the ER.

You will have bumps on the road and finishing your divorce will certainly be difficult emotionally and stress wise. Doing this sober will allow you to take rational decisions.

Ok, here we go smiley number 2. Long story...

Thepatman

Holy moly I didn't realize the banana was that wild!

Pondlady

Portland is beautiful....head east, beautiful forests with water falls, head west......on the beach and coastal fishing villages.

Glad you got help and are sober.

Anna

Elisabeth, I love Portland. I love the west coast feel, laid back and cool.

I'm sorry for all you're going through, but good for you for going to the ER and getting the help you needed.

And, I hope you do get a lawyer and you deserve your fair share of the assets.

charleesavedme

I'm glad for you and hope things continue to get better. I have only heard wonderful things about Portland!

Carlotta

I am so happy for you: Congratulations on 7 days.
My BFF lives in Portland and it is a great city. Once you get settled in, you absolutely have to go crab fishing on the Oregon coast if you have never done so.
Wishing you and your little furry family a wonderful new sober life.

DisplacedGRITS

Hey! I live in Seattle now so a big West Coast hello to you. Also, Front line on the 4th is going on over the 4th of July holiday. Many of my friends are driving to Portland for it. I'll go if I'm not working that day. You might wanna check it out. Registration is going on now.

MythOfSisyphus

Get a lawyer! Ignore his threats- your 'dirty laundry' is just words. What can he do that isn't already done? If you're ready to put the past to bed then what harm will come from acknowledging it?

Best wishes and good luck! I hope you like your new adopted home. I hear it's beautiful out there.