Day 18
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Day 18
I find that, this time around, rather than having the AV roaring in my head, I find myself fighting the negativity that I know will lead to that. I seem to have better tools in place to fight that initial trigger before it leads to the actual craving. I honestly have not had any major cravings (yet). I am calling that progress over my last attempt to quit drinking, as I was fighting that damn monster in my head constantly in the past. That voice seems to have way less power at this point than it did at my last day 18. It gives me hope 
Onward ...
Onward ...
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Congrats on day 19 Hokey. It seems every day there is something different to battle, but it does get easier over time. And of course it's far easier to deal with those things sober...so keep it up, you are doing great!
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Congrats on 19 days, Keep it simple. That is what I am doing, I am on 9 days today and like you I feel that I am better equipped and actually truly ready now to make the needed committment to live a new sober life. Stay Centered!
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I have been going to meetings every night and I'm actually really enjoying them. The first go 'round with AA (about 12 or 13 years ago), I had a really hard time with the whole program. I now think that I was so hung up on the wrong things, the things that really don't matter (like defining my HP precisely right away), that I pushed myself away. I wasn't ready to just "let go" of stuff that was out of my control. So I had to go back and try to "control" things myself again (hahaha we all know how well THAT works) for over a decade. Now, I am finding it much easier to let things go. I say that Serenity Prayer alot these days and it actually helps ... immensely. My journey will be a long one ... lifelong ... and that's ok. I don't need everything to be the way I think it should be and I don't need all the answers immediately. Patience ... or just willingness to grow? I don't know. What I DO know is that I am happily and gratefully sober today. Tomorrow is a new day and all I can do is take them on 24 hours at a time. Thanks to everyone for your words of support and encouragement ... they mean so much
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