Serper2014

As many of you know. I went from being a 10-12 drink/perday/everyday for years alcoholic. To drinking every 3-4 days for the last 6 months. I'm finally ready to quit. It's different this time and I'll tell you why. All the times that I told people I was quitting before. Deep down in the back of my head I envisioned the future where I would go on dates and have some drinks. Or if I was going to fly on a plane I'd get drunk before that. I pictured going camping this summer with my friends and drinking then. I pictured getting drunk on my wedding night, or at my friends weddings. Every time I told people I was quitting I thought oh well at least I'm not drinking like I used to so who cares if I get drunk every now and then. I just thought that If I could go 90 days then I could get back to drinking socially. I never even made it close to 90. I think the longest I went was 7. So now instead of trying to prove to myself that If I do 90 days then I'll be back to normal and I can drink socially. I'm finally admitting to myself that I Serper2014 don't drink. That is who I am. And now I envision my future where I'm surrounded by new friends as well as old friends and they say 'oh yeah, he doesn't drink". I feel like calling up all my friends and telling them "No I really quit this time!!" "This time it's different because I actually mean it" It reminds me of the scene from the movie liar liar. Saying you are going to quit, and really truly believing of a future without alcohol are two different things. This is the first time that I really believe it. I had my last drink yesterday at noon. I'm not hungover today. I'm not saying this because I'm anxious or scared or sick. I'm saying it because I've finally made peace that "Serper2014" is someone who just doesn't drink. I just wanted to share with you all. I've accepted my new identity.

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You won't regret it, I promise.

Stoogy

Well done on choosing a simpler way to live.

SigChiScooby

You have made an excellent decision my friend! This post would be an excellent post to read again the next time you are tempted to drink.

Serper2014

I may be tempted by peers to drink again, but I don't drink. It's just not something I do.

Thepatman

I know what you mean about having a crack in the door still opened.

I've shut the door, locked it and threw away the key ;-)

Serper2014

Patman, I don't know how to describe this feeling I have right now it's like I want to cry scream and laugh all at the same time... It's quite overwhelming...
It's hard to put it in words, but it's such a good feeling.

HeadLump

Great decision, Serper! Welcome to the new you

Serper2014

Thanks for the support!

I don't expect to have any bad withdrawal symptoms as I haven't had them in the past because I've only been drinking every 3-4 days.
So this is doable because I won't need to drink because I'm physically sick..

Hevyn

I'm glad to hear the good news Serper. When I finally made the decision to stop all together it was a huge relief. It's great to be free. Proud of you for making this choice.

Dee74

I think that's precisely the attitude you need to have Serper. I wish you well.
Remember there's always support here

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Serper2014

Thanks for the support.