After a year of teeter tottering....
After a year of teeter tottering....
After a year (or more) of investigating if I can drink like a normie and manage my life, I have finally quit digging. My desire to stay sober is stronger than my desire to drink. I feel solid about this. I have a sponsor and a home group. It's time to get further into action. No more investigating. My affair with alcohol is over. I know I have said it before, but it has taken me every drop I have consumed to get here. And I'm pumped to let the past go!
Welcome back - it sounds like you are definitely on the right path as your name would suggest! Glad to hear you have a solid foundation started locally for support, and hope you can find what you need here on SR as well.
Yes day 2. I am currently packing as I am going on a weekend trip with my husband and his coworkers. Im being gentle on myself and having some realistic fears about this trip. But I have checked out meeting times and places. I have a script for Ativan if my anxiety gets out of control. I am trying not to project too far into the future. Just asking for guidance at every juncture.
I am more scared of being home alone tomorrow night than I am being away for the weekend. But I keep telling myself that the trip would be horrendous if I started it out hungover. And I want to show up merely jet lagged, not useless. Lol
Anyways, things are well in the big scheme of things. I'm gonna hit a meeting here in a little bit.
I am more scared of being home alone tomorrow night than I am being away for the weekend. But I keep telling myself that the trip would be horrendous if I started it out hungover. And I want to show up merely jet lagged, not useless. Lol
Anyways, things are well in the big scheme of things. I'm gonna hit a meeting here in a little bit.
Thanks . I can't do it on my own though. I need u people. And I need to stay close to aa. The closest meeting to my hotel is 3 min by car. Have the address saved in my phone. <-- the next right thing
And is it wrong that I am fantasizing sitting in my room, with my phone and a book. After a hot
Shower? Haha.... Unreal. Most hotel stays mean let's get wasted! Use the corridor walls to keep my upright as I stumble back to my room. Not remembering turning the lights on or off and passing out on the worlds comfiest pillows? Sounds like fun?????? Nope. But it's what I am used too, so this is already making me a bit uncomfortable. ((Honest))
Shower? Haha.... Unreal. Most hotel stays mean let's get wasted! Use the corridor walls to keep my upright as I stumble back to my room. Not remembering turning the lights on or off and passing out on the worlds comfiest pillows? Sounds like fun?????? Nope. But it's what I am used too, so this is already making me a bit uncomfortable. ((Honest))
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