theupsides92

Loss of integrity last Wednesday led to a binge that ended last night. I am back at square one again, armed with the knowledge that I simply cannot ever drink again. Not ever. Voices in my head telling me that I can control this issue are lying. The time has come for me to accept the fact that I can't be an on again, off again drinker. It's not in the cards for me and that is something that I am ashamed it took me this long to learn. My wasted days pile up till they scrape the ceiling in my rented room. It's time for me to seek professional therapy or AA.

Nonsensical

Welcome back to the fight of your life.

Renarde

Joining the recovery fight is a happy day. I'm glad you are here.

PurpleKnight

Don't beat yourself up, it took me a year to get from the point of realising I had a problem with alcohol to finally resolving that I need to be completely Sober, abstaining from alcohol didn't in some way cure or fix me, it simply kept the door firmly shut and Sobriety was the only way forward.

Many of us have felt the same feelings, you can do this!!

Hevyn

Hi Upsides. Not a sad day - a day of enlightenment. I had one too, over 6 yrs. ago. I never picked up again. I always knew I didn't drink like others, but I guess I needed further proof that I couldn't touch it. You can and will do this.

theupsides92

Thank you for your kind words.

Thepatman

Once you realize that it's no longer an option on the table, you get a dee sense

Thepatman

Deep sense of relief I was trying to finish typing.