Day 9
Mary2
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Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: Scotland
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Day 9
Today I am ok. Elected to work night shifts at week ends to keep me occupied. Through the week is ok I have my boys to put to school and I watch my baby neice. I'm going on holiday 3 weeks today to flamingoland with my boys and my big boys auntie. I pray I can make this a sober holiday .. Last year I was sneaking vodkas and making excuses to go to the bar etc. was never drunk but kept topped up certainly. The old mug with vodka in it trick. Ahhh life. I'm scared it's dull without the alcohol. That is simply me speaking the truth xx
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
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I know exactly what you mean. I always needed it to have fun as well.
But the fun was not real when looking back. For example, playing with my son is 100% more fun sober. Because I'm all there and not thinking about my next drink or running out.
You are doing great, give time. Your brain chemicals will rebalance to produce the feel good emotion.
But the fun was not real when looking back. For example, playing with my son is 100% more fun sober. Because I'm all there and not thinking about my next drink or running out.
You are doing great, give time. Your brain chemicals will rebalance to produce the feel good emotion.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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Originally Posted by hez1979 
I'm scared it's dull without the alcohol. That is simply me speaking the truth xx
I worried very much that life would be dull without alcohol - or at least that I would be
But, after the first month, my partner said he thought that I was so much more alive and fun to be with and I noticed that I smiled a lot more easily and laughed much more.
Being sober is different, but the pleasure you find is a natural one, which can be longlasting and guilt-free
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Nova Scotia
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A big congrats to you on day 9. I'm also on day 9, and doing well, but like you I'm worried about a dry summer vacation.
I'm looking forward to being able to see and do more on this holiday because I won't be hung over though.
You can do this!
I'm looking forward to being able to see and do more on this holiday because I won't be hung over though.
You can do this!
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Hez - 9 days is wonderful. 
That was one of my fears too - that there'd be no more excitement, nothing to look forward to. Of course that's an unhealthy way to think - but most of us feel that way early on. In the beginning it was very strange without it, even though I knew it was slowly killing me. I had to get used to living in a whole new way - without my buffer. Patman's right - that 'fun' we're so afraid of missing was not real. Being numb and foggy isn't the way to go through life. Hez - I predict you'll get used to the 'new normal' and grow to love it.
That was one of my fears too - that there'd be no more excitement, nothing to look forward to. Of course that's an unhealthy way to think - but most of us feel that way early on. In the beginning it was very strange without it, even though I knew it was slowly killing me. I had to get used to living in a whole new way - without my buffer. Patman's right - that 'fun' we're so afraid of missing was not real. Being numb and foggy isn't the way to go through life. Hez - I predict you'll get used to the 'new normal' and grow to love it.
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