Hawk07

I'm at work now and just went to the staff fridge to get some water and dun dun dun... there's my nemesis. A cold 6 pack of beer that one of my coworkers must have brought in. I don't normally drink beer but when I do it's the exact one I would get, a strong IPA. Of course I'm not going to start drinking it here at work but talk about trigger. I feel like I just got shot by a bullet. I've got just over 2 weeks under my belt and wasn't prepared for this..

I feel like the universe is testing me. To top it all off tonight is my first night back at my place after staying with family for the last 2 weeks 'drying out'. I live alone. It's Friday and it's summer. My family is out of town.

Determined not to let this ship go down!

SoberLeigh

Yikes is right!!!! Man, at work no less.

Remember, SR is 24/7; post and lean on us at ANY time.

GwenCummings

We had curry and my husband opened a can of Stella Artois. I nearly mugged him for it! I breathed. I moved on.
That is what we will always have to do. We can do it.

Thepatman

Yikes indeed! LOL!

GracieLou

This has me cracking up! Sorry, I know it was not funny but the DUN DUN DUN was great! LOL

StayStrong33

Keep posting to SR - you can overcome this!

Jupiters

I snickered too! lol

STAY STRONG!!!

Hevyn

Nothing but pain & misery at the bottom of those cans Hawk - but you already know that. Glad you posted.

zombiegirl

Keep been strong. As the guy in the water boy says
"You can do it!"

Tiptree

Stay with us on SR tonight. You don't have to struggle alone.

Verte

Hey Hawk,

Carry your laptop with you wherever you go...logged in.

It is hard.

hokey

you can do this Hawk!

Hawk07

Thanks

I refuse to wake up at the bottom of a bottle tomorrow and praying that I'll live like the last time. I'll do what ever it takes to avoid that. Focused on making it through the rest of today and tonight. Since I figure I'll be saving thousands? of calories by not doing my usual weekend binge I'm going to grab a ton of take out food from my favorite restaurant on my way home... being uncomfortably full curbs the cravings... working on developing better coping mechanisms for the craving but today it's wicked strong and this will have to do. And I'll be on SR. I'll be the one going bonkers but at least I'll be sober.

happyandfree

That's what I do also....eat! I rarely drank on a full stomach. So And when I'm home alone-which is alot-I stay on this site with the tv on and see what others write, etc and it keeps me on track and grateful that I'm not drinking. I haven't gotten bored with this site and it really helps. Stay in touch Hawk, you're doing so well.

Dee74

There are millions of cans of beer out there. We don't care cos we're non-drinkers - it may as well be brake fluid, right?

You can stay sober tonight Hawk...

Hawk07

Haha! Dee. Yup thats pretty much what echoed in my head. Made it home with a ton of take out food. No booze in sight and hunkered down for the night

Thepatman

I just laughed my head off Dee, thanks for the tube link.

The mental picture of the fridge door opening and that sound. LOL!

Minion09

Hawk, I hear you on being home alone, as I too live alone. Bewitching hour right now, but I will not succumb come way to far to turn back now, no day but today!

SigChiScooby

You gt this Hawk! Im rootin for ya!

LadyBlue0527