I'm ready to live again
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Join Date: May 2014
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I'm ready to live again
I've been a problem drinker for most of my adult life. Started as a teen, drank away my 20's, even though I did manage to raise my kids and start a successful career. Quit for 7 years starting in my mid 30's and naively thought I could have a few again. Or maybe I just got bored and lazy. Whatever, I have been drunk many times a month to several times a week ever since. Sick and guilt ridden through hangovers just to do it again and again. At 58, it's starting to look pretty pathetic. So 2 days ago I decided it is time. Signed on to the SMART recovery page and was excited to find this in the Apple App Store. Been reading many of the posts here. Good to find this support. I lost my job due to the agency cutting positions in March, decided to leave my husband in April. Moved from AZ to Maine in May. So now I have this new life starting and I could see if I kept up the way I was, I'd be feeling bad for myself and end up a washed up old drunken hag in no time. So here I am. Looking forward to all this place has to offer. Hello to you all. Excited for my new beginning but nervous at the same time.
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Wow! That's a lot of huge changes in a short amount of time.
Are you at all interested in AA? You could make some new friends in Maine, I know there are a lot of hard drinkers up there - I'll bet a few of them have stopped
Welcome to the site.
Are you at all interested in AA? You could make some new friends in Maine, I know there are a lot of hard drinkers up there - I'll bet a few of them have stopped
Welcome to the site.
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Biminiblue' I don't think AA is my best choice. I was happy to find that the SMART principles are more science based and that fits me best. But your right about Mainers... There are some big drinkers here!
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Join Date: Mar 2014
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Better 58 than never! I am 55 and will have 90 days tomorrow...I am like you in the fact that I had 10 years of sobriety, (was even a alcohol & drug counselor) and went out....took me years to get back....I am so fricking grateful and stoked to be sober again....and glad you are too!
I'm glad you joined us at the start of your new life. You'll find lots of support here. 
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Welcome Irma! It's nice that you are in a new location and out of a relationship that wasn't working. You are starting sobriety with a clean slate all around. I wish you success in your new journey. A great group of people on here who can relate without judgement.
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Hi Irma - I can relate to your journey - I got sober just after my 37th birthday for 6 years and one month. I then experienced major grief in the death of a loved one and believed I'd learnt so much I could drink again. It has taken 4.5 + years to realise I really want to get sober again. Things got worse during this period and I've come close to losing my family. Today is Day 21 sober, life is so much better and I so want my life of recovery back again. Take care.
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