So So So So Tired!
So So So So Tired!
I'm just outright tired.
I'm tired of being angry
I'm tired of worrying
I'm tired of sitting at the computer
I'm tired of acting like everything is alright
I'm tired of arguing with my son
I'm tired of looking at the drapes blowing
I'm tired of thinking how I will survive in my home once school gets out (I'm not on salary)
I'm tired of complaining
I'm tired of typing, I'm tired of drinking coffee, I'm tired of diet pop, I'm tired of cleaning, I'm tired of smiling/crying, I'm tired of hearing the dogs bark, I'm tired pitying my AXH, I'm tired of movies, I'm tired of the rain,
I'm tired of being angry
I'm tired of worrying
I'm tired of sitting at the computer
I'm tired of acting like everything is alright
I'm tired of arguing with my son
I'm tired of looking at the drapes blowing
I'm tired of thinking how I will survive in my home once school gets out (I'm not on salary)
I'm tired of complaining
I'm tired of typing, I'm tired of drinking coffee, I'm tired of diet pop, I'm tired of cleaning, I'm tired of smiling/crying, I'm tired of hearing the dogs bark, I'm tired pitying my AXH, I'm tired of movies, I'm tired of the rain,
Pressure makes diamonds
Join Date: May 2014
Posts: 521
Hi airwick
I get your frustrations, but the good news is you're SOBER!!! When we were drunk we couldn't feel anything because we were weren't living. Try seeing the good in what's bothering you: you have a computer, you have a son, you have drapes because you have a home- and most of all- you have sobriety.
I'll take a bad day sober over a good day drunk.
I get your frustrations, but the good news is you're SOBER!!! When we were drunk we couldn't feel anything because we were weren't living. Try seeing the good in what's bothering you: you have a computer, you have a son, you have drapes because you have a home- and most of all- you have sobriety.
I'll take a bad day sober over a good day drunk.
I'm thinking you are pretty stressed. Is there something that you can do to take care of yourself even if just for a little while? Remember that saying H.A.L.T? Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. Generally when I'm off balance, one or more of those things is going on. For me, I need to take care of it to get back on balance.
I'm thinking you are pretty stressed. Is there something that you can do to take care of yourself even if just for a little while? Remember that saying H.A.L.T? Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. Generally when I'm off balance, one or more of those things is going on. For me, I need to take care of it to get back on balance.
I'm no longer angry, it's just not worth it anymore
I am lonely, because I was married for 13yrs and now I am alone with my son
I am tired, both emotionally and physically
Yet, I would NEVER go back to how it was. I've been making it on my own, have my house-which I am so proud of! Full custody of my son-which I am more proud of. I'm alcohol free, away from my AXH.....In reality I'm not doing half bad when I consider how thee rest of the world is doing. I guess I just needed to talk, which I don't do that often. I listen. I don't mind giving help or assistance. It's just hard for me to accept it.
That's me today , airwick. Nothing consoles me today it seems. I'm pissed off at the world. I do feel like taking a nice big swig and checking out for the day. . Nine days down the shoot. I can't but I want . Crazy thinking!
HECK NO.
I need to set an example for my " soon to be" teenage son. I need to show him life is good. Normal people don't bump into wall, fall on the floor drunk (like his dad did). I was more or less the calm drinker, but do not consider myself to be any better then him. A drunk is a drunk no matter what type you are.
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