had 10 days
had 10 days
Damnit i had 10 days and gave in to the av last night. Im beyond upset with myself and embarassed. I did so well and now this. Im getting back on the wagon tho. Im NOT giving up on me. Others might but i wont.
Ad thing is i felt guilty during the whole night every sip and still kept going. That AV is a b *'*** but im not giving up. Before bed i wrote myself a note and taped it to my big book. Words of encouragement, nice reading it this morning. Its lije the old me slipped out long enough to do that at least.
Good for you for jumping back on the wagon. It took me many attempts before it finally took. I remember how proud I was several years ago when I made it 28 days, a year later when I made it 40+ days and last year when I made it to nearly 100 days. Tomorrow will be five months. Keep at it Christimc, you can do this! Keep in mind, it does get easier with time so don't give up before the miracle happens!
No question, a lot of bad words come to mind when I think of my AV! Last time I gave in after 3 months sober, it took me over a year to come back here. You are awesome for coming back right away and making a plan to move forward.
Welcome back to Day1 Christimc...is the situation you found yourself in last night something that you can avoid at all costs going forward?
It is hard. Keep moving (stick around here though)
It is hard. Keep moving (stick around here though)
Pressure makes diamonds
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Start again. This isn't easy. I've been back to day 1 many times- mad, sad, sick and frustrated. I'm done for good and today is day 8 for me. Keep posting when you feel the need to give in, take a walk, but don't take a sip. It isn't worth it. I just finished a book by Jason Vale called Kick the Drink Easily. It made a huge impact on my view of alcohol and how society romanticizes this legal drug, alcohol. I wish you the best with your journey.
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