Raider

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The Fuzz Fu Fighting


I haven't posted much during the week I've been back. Leaving my family 2 weeks early broke my heart. I have been such a crumb, and because I feel crappy, I must insure everyone in my immediate world feels my pain. I hardly spoke to my H the first three days home. Can't have him walking around with a smiley face now, can I? Ahhhhh that would be no. So it took this whole week for me to be ok with what I did. Should not have brought The Fuzz. It just caused a lot of issues, not the least of which she peed all over my sisters house when she felt stress, the stress of having my sisters dog try to eat her every chance she got. A lot learned on this short trip. Shrink guy gave me Xanax to help with anxiety, ummmmm that was a fail. Did not feel one bit more relaxed. Sister said it would put me to sleep,......ummmm no it did not. All I got was a massive headache. So I tried one here at home, without any stress going on, one Xanax put me to sleep in less than an hour. Guess it depends on what's going on, how it will effect me? Doesn't make sense but I don't have a better explanation.
Hey thanks for the replies when I posted about coming home from Alaska early. It meant a lot to me. Love ya' bunches.

Pam

Dee74

I think it would help you to post more Raider. You're no crumb

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Thepatman

Hi raider, I kept wondering how you are doing! And let's not forget the Fuzzz!

Raider

You're probably right Dee. Thanks.

least

I'm glad you're home safe and sound. And the Fuzz looks like quite a fighter.

Aellyce

Hey Raider - I love all your pics of The Fuzz. Yes, she's also a vulnerable little creature like all of us. Keep her warm and safe if you can

I'm a little more concerned about the benzos... please be very, very careful, you know why.

Anna

Raider, sometimes learning is not a lot of fun and this was one of those times.

I'm glad you're back and feeling better. Hopefully Fuzz will settle into his home now.

Verte

So glad to hear that you are back on your home turf. Sleeping in your own bed must be pretty nice?

Giant hugs to you. I love reading your posts and hearing about the Fuzz (aka 'the po-po', the dreamy airplane aisle runner, keeper of safety and societal order).

Please write daily, often. You are very appreciated and missed when you are not on the boards.

EJ43

Hi raider! Welcome back!

Hawkeye13

Glad you're back safe and sober.

That's the most important thing

GotGrace

Good to hear from you, Raider! Sorry things didn't go as well as you had hoped, but you tried and you stayed sober and that, my girl, is a big freaking deal!

azbluesgal

happy for you that you survived "family time" and you were SANE enough to leave on your time and terms.

Hevyn

Just look at The Fuzz - she got moves like Jagger.

Raider, you gave it a good shot and did the right thing by leaving before a meltdown. We are proud of you.

CAPTAINZING2000

Did you bring a coat for that poor kitty so he wouldn't freeze

Raider

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I brought every outfit a Grandma would want The Fuzz to wear to Church. Because, yes, she did come to Church because all those people know her on FB and wanted to see her. (No I am not the crazy catlady, just an addict in recovery 109 days!!!!!).

Whoop whoop whooop!!!!!!!!

Kaneda8888

Glad you are ok, Raider. Take it easy on yourself ! I think the Fuzz may be watching too many Jet Li movies

iSPAZ

Missed you Raider.

MythOfSisyphus

Sobering us not only lets us see ourselves with all our faults, it can give us a window into our families, too. The situation with your family was toxic for you at the time. I'm glad you came home before you let the booze reclaim you.