The new normal
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The new normal
Out walking my dogs and thinking as I do when I do and it occurred to me that my brain and mind is gradually returning to something like normality at 9 days, though it still has some way to go!
In the past I have found this new sober consciousness slightly alarming. It feels 'different' to the boozy brain I normally walk around with. It is more alert, more able to carry on an intelligent conversation (and actually to hold a conversation without knowing in the back of your mind you head is in a bad place and being self conscious about that). At the same time it is more relaxed, but also slightly more tense paradoxically.
This is what it is like to be (nearly) normal! In the past I haven't liked it much, but I am finding it an attractive alternative to the booze brain this time around.
Onwards!
In the past I have found this new sober consciousness slightly alarming. It feels 'different' to the boozy brain I normally walk around with. It is more alert, more able to carry on an intelligent conversation (and actually to hold a conversation without knowing in the back of your mind you head is in a bad place and being self conscious about that). At the same time it is more relaxed, but also slightly more tense paradoxically.
This is what it is like to be (nearly) normal! In the past I haven't liked it much, but I am finding it an attractive alternative to the booze brain this time around.
Onwards!
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That's a perfect way to describe it, the new normal!
When I first quit I thought about how boring life was going to be. Nothing to look forward to on the weekends, absence of my longtime favorite companion at parties and events. Ugh, how was I going to live? I literally laugh at that now. I have found an appreciation for life that I've never known.
It IS a new normal, and it's FANTASTIC. No pink cloud hanging around either. Just a genuine appreciation for what life is without a liar climbing on your back trying to make you think that you need to drink in order to have any fun or to deal with problems.
Alcohol didn't create fun, solve problems, or help me deal with pain. It stopped me from doing all of those things.
Good going Mentium, if you're liking this now just hold on to your hat because you're going to know a life that you never knew existed.
When I first quit I thought about how boring life was going to be. Nothing to look forward to on the weekends, absence of my longtime favorite companion at parties and events. Ugh, how was I going to live? I literally laugh at that now. I have found an appreciation for life that I've never known.
It IS a new normal, and it's FANTASTIC. No pink cloud hanging around either. Just a genuine appreciation for what life is without a liar climbing on your back trying to make you think that you need to drink in order to have any fun or to deal with problems.
Alcohol didn't create fun, solve problems, or help me deal with pain. It stopped me from doing all of those things.
Good going Mentium, if you're liking this now just hold on to your hat because you're going to know a life that you never knew existed.
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I think beginning to feel normal is a big step in this recovery journey. Yes, there will be days when you have headaches and things don't go well, but there will also be wonderful days. And, you will be able to sail through both and stay sober.
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