Waking Up Sober
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Waking Up Sober
No, I do not wake up, stretch my arms and feel like a million bucks
(I'm not a spring chicken). But what I do have is a clear mind. I
actually eat breakfast now (home prepared) and a cup of 50/50
coffee. I know that any decisions that I make today will be made
with a better logical standpoint and any problems that I may
encounter will be handled in a better manner than when I was
indulging. Noise does not even bother me that much anymore.
I continue to have periods of anxiety and depression, as we all do,
but they are less frequent. I realize it is part of the long recovery
process. What is important is that I fought the beast one more
day, and I won. Thank God I'm sober again today!
(I'm not a spring chicken). But what I do have is a clear mind. I
actually eat breakfast now (home prepared) and a cup of 50/50
coffee. I know that any decisions that I make today will be made
with a better logical standpoint and any problems that I may
encounter will be handled in a better manner than when I was
indulging. Noise does not even bother me that much anymore.
I continue to have periods of anxiety and depression, as we all do,
but they are less frequent. I realize it is part of the long recovery
process. What is important is that I fought the beast one more
day, and I won. Thank God I'm sober again today!
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Amazingly, about two years ago, I actually quit for nine months on my own!
I had no program in place, I had little support and I was not dealing with
my many underlying psychological issues. It is no surprise that I relapsed.
I did not understand alcoholism as I do now, and most important for
the very first time, I admitted that I was an alcoholic possibly in the
terminal stages. One thing about having that clear mind, you now
realize the destruction that you have caused to your body and how
you have affected the lives of others in such a negative way. I will
make amends where I can and not allow guilt and shame to take me
over. This sober period is much better and I will do it one day at a time.
I had no program in place, I had little support and I was not dealing with
my many underlying psychological issues. It is no surprise that I relapsed.
I did not understand alcoholism as I do now, and most important for
the very first time, I admitted that I was an alcoholic possibly in the
terminal stages. One thing about having that clear mind, you now
realize the destruction that you have caused to your body and how
you have affected the lives of others in such a negative way. I will
make amends where I can and not allow guilt and shame to take me
over. This sober period is much better and I will do it one day at a time.
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Join Date: May 2014
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LOL! Just a short time ago, I could
have got in a massive argument with
my wife for something she said.
Prior to my recovery process I
would have blown up and headed
for the "store" 1/2 block away and
bought some "friends" to console me.
I just let it pass, realizing she is under
a lot of stress during time.
have got in a massive argument with
my wife for something she said.
Prior to my recovery process I
would have blown up and headed
for the "store" 1/2 block away and
bought some "friends" to console me.
I just let it pass, realizing she is under
a lot of stress during time.
pray for strength
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Originally Posted by Chicagoan 
I did not understand alcoholism as I do now, and most important for the very first time, I admitted that I was an alcoholic possibly in the terminal stages. One thing about having that clear mind, you now
realize the destruction that you have caused to your body and how
you have affected the lives of others in such a negative way.
realize the destruction that you have caused to your body and how
you have affected the lives of others in such a negative way.
You are doing great Chicagoan. Very insightful posting
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Thanks for sharing the good news Chicagoan. I'm so glad you're doing well, & it will continue to get a bit better each day.
It's amazing to me that I thought I was helping myself cope with life by getting numb. I was actually making things so much harder and more complicated. My nerves were always on edge & I was incapable of making sensible decisions. It is not our friend after all.
It's amazing to me that I thought I was helping myself cope with life by getting numb. I was actually making things so much harder and more complicated. My nerves were always on edge & I was incapable of making sensible decisions. It is not our friend after all.
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