Lyrel

Hi all,

I first found these forums about a year and a half ago, and people here really helped me to pause, stop, and stay sober for over 6 months. Then the summer came, and the alcohol trickled in again. It wasn't much of an issue for a while, but as expected, a year later I found myself unable to control it again. I promise to take a long break from alcohol in the evening, and then I pick up a beer after work, and a glass of wine when I get back home. Weekends are even worse. It doesn't affect my work(yet), but it is slowly destroying my family and my self-esteem.
I am really scared that I can't control it. I don't feel it as much as physical dependance anymore (haven't had a real hangover in a while), but I just can't stop even though I really want to.

least

You've come to a good place for support. We understand how hard this can be. I hope the support here can help you stop drinking for good.

echoedspirit

Hi, I'm into my 6 month now, and I know how hard it is and still very hard for me, i really hope that you can find that place where you can be safe and get through this. I have had help from close friends but i still feel i need the help from others that are going through it, that is why i have joined the forum, to give and recieve help the best way i can.
stay strong

Lyrel

Thank you for your support!
I was considering joining some real life support group, but I'm scared that if this gets out, my career will be over for good. I guess I will just hug the phone every time I'm nearing the liquor store.

Chicagoan

Tomorrow is another day.
I have fell off the wagon
many times. pick up the
pieces and move on.
The problem is, in spite
of my binge drinking, I
did not truly believe that
I was a full blown alcoholic.
Now I know, there is no
doubt whatsoever. You
Can Do It!

Gottalife

If you are an alcoholic of my type, the fact that you are a deteriorating chronic alcoholic is much more likely to come out than the fact that you are an alcoholic who is recovering.

It's a common fear that someone might find out we went to AA, but often we find out later that almost everybody knew about our drinking anyway. And we thought we had hidden it so well.

If you find you can't stop on your own, you may have no choice but to get some help face to face. Try to keep an open mind on this if you can.

Nonsensical

Yes you can. You just haven't yet!

Welcome back.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back to the Forum!!

Lyrel

Thanks all! Got rid of all the alcohol at home...just need to make it past the liquir store on the way back home!

Nonsensical

Old habits die hard, but they do die.


Driving past that liquor store felt unnatural for a long time. Now I don't even think of it on my way home. Stay focused. You can do this!

Dee74

welcome back Lyrel

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