Alcohol still works for me......
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Alcohol still works for me......
I have heard that phrase going around and relate a lot. I have also heard others saying alcohol stopped working for me. I have been trying to get sober for a long time now but just keep going back to it. If I am honest, I love being drunk and don't want to stop drinking. I am still youngish at 28years of age. The main motivation for me giving up is my family threatening to throw me out of the house. Alcohol has many negative consequences in my life but I still love it dearly, that euphoria is hard to let go off. My life is presently a ruin, i have severe social anxiety disorder and live a quite isolated life with really no purpose. I depend on my family to provide for me so I am caught between a rock and a hard place. Another part of me thinks that me being thrown out of my house would be a big wake up call and help me to make a life for myself. I live a quite luxurious life now, meals all made for me, nice food and drink always in the house. I can get up out of bed whenever I want, stay up till however late I want. So yeah, I don't really have much incentives to get sober. The anxiety is killer in my life but I have suffered like this for so long, I am kind of used to it, going on a decade living like this. So yeah, I never usually post and only lurk but I think it is good for me to share this, maybe I will learn something I am presently unaware of. Thanks, Robert.
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Most times I drink now is just me in a bush with my ipod since I can't drink in the house anymore. Strangely, this is all I need and I cherish these times. I like being out in nature when drinking and the tunes just enhance the good feelings. Ive been to rehab a few times, been in and out of AA. I guess I'm too comfortable in my life.
You've got 58 posts Robert, over the course of a couple years. Part of you wants to get sober.
Why don't you quit for a while and let that person emerge. You can always go back to drinking if sobriety is so miserable. But frankly, I don't think you've given it a fair shake.
Why don't you quit for a while and let that person emerge. You can always go back to drinking if sobriety is so miserable. But frankly, I don't think you've given it a fair shake.
Alcohol isn't working for you
There is probably an AA meeting soon near you. I pray that you find help,
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You've got 58 posts Robert, over the course of a couple years. Part of you wants to get sober.
Why don't you quit for a while and let that person emerge. You can always go back to drinking if sobriety is so miserable. But frankly, I don't think you've given it a fair shake.
Why don't you quit for a while and let that person emerge. You can always go back to drinking if sobriety is so miserable. But frankly, I don't think you've given it a fair shake.
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Step away from the bush...
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Hi, I have tried before to just use this site to stay sober and it was never enough. The compulsion to drink is just too strong for me.
At first drinking was fun in my life
Later trouble came with the drinking
At the end of my drinking days,
All drinking did was cause me trouble.
I know a few functioning alcoholics.
Drinking as far as I can tell, never got
Them into any apparent trouble.
What separated me from them,
There are consequences when I drank.
Later trouble came with the drinking
At the end of my drinking days,
All drinking did was cause me trouble.
I know a few functioning alcoholics.
Drinking as far as I can tell, never got
Them into any apparent trouble.
What separated me from them,
There are consequences when I drank.
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Hi Robert,
It sounds to me like your situation is enabling you. 28 is still rather young but make no mistake about it, you can add 10 years to this and not even see the years pass in front of you.
I hope you can kick this killing habit and seek help.
It sounds to me like your situation is enabling you. 28 is still rather young but make no mistake about it, you can add 10 years to this and not even see the years pass in front of you.
I hope you can kick this killing habit and seek help.
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At first drinking was fun in my life
Later trouble came with the drinking
At the end of my drinking days,
All drinking did was cause me trouble.
I know a few functioning alcoholics.
Drinking as far as I can tell, never got
Them into any apparent trouble.
What separated me from them,
There are consequences when I drank.
Later trouble came with the drinking
At the end of my drinking days,
All drinking did was cause me trouble.
I know a few functioning alcoholics.
Drinking as far as I can tell, never got
Them into any apparent trouble.
What separated me from them,
There are consequences when I drank.
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Thanks, part of me does too. Or else I wouldn't be here. But it feels like it's got it's claws too deep into me.
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I believe you are right. But the mountain looks to damn steep and slippy that I have to climb up. Guess I am comfortable right now even thou at times I suffer terribly. Might sound strange but its how I feel.
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