Raider

Well heck, since I stopped drinking, I have also attempted to stop the drama. Not too hard when your family lives 2500 miles away. But here I am in Alaska with the family, and with The Fuzz. So much drama to get sucked into. I'm at the hospital waiting for my Dad to have a medical procedure done. Sister is at home, Mom is at home. image.jpg. Mom loves The Fuzz.

Those two are fighting over who can best take care of The Fuzz while I'm here with Dad. Mom has The Fuzz now and at 82, is chasing The Fuzz around the house because she is afraid she will tip over the garbage or open the frig, and Mom asking me to leave the hospital. Ahhhh that would be no Mom, I'm waiting for my Dad.

Here is the thing, and I'm looking to you for an opinion. You know I relapsed terribly last time I was here. I was so afraid it would happen this time. This time, with the drama, and more to come, I don't feel the urge to drink. Where is my urge? What happened to my urge? Looking forward to your responses.

I felt one little ***** to my heart when my sister was looking at a drink menu (she doesn't even drink). I told her quit playing with that menu, which she did, and the little ***** left.

Thanks and love ya' bunches. Blessings to ya' two fold.

Hevyn

Hi Raider! I look forward to the answers too. I had the same experience & never figured out why. All of a sudden I was just done.

Would you look at The Fuzz being adored by Mom. To think you were considering not taking him.

biminiblue

Well, it's obvious it's the Fuzz.

What a great picture, BTW.


I don't really think it's the Fuzz. It is you "getting it". Great job not getting dragged into the dance.

Just because the music is playing...

Raider

Really? Me and Hevyn "get it"? I love that. I read posts about others going to parties, etc., in their early sobriety. I still can't do that. I won't even go to a nice dinner place, because that will remind me of drinks. Maybe someday??

Duffster

I don't know how to answer the question posed ... but that is one of the sweetest pictures I've ever seen

Anna

I love the photo too, Raider!

Maybe something shifted in your thinking this time.

jaynie04

Love that pic Raider. So happy that your trip is going so well, it sounds like you have a great traveling buddy. It looks like The Fuzz could run for mayor.

Tetra

Love the picture, made me feel all warm and fuzzy and gave me a smile

biminiblue

Raider, I can go to bars, parties and dinner out.

What I can't do is speak when called on in an AA meeting. I can talk if it's my idea. Not if they call on me.

Control freak much?

So, we all have that little sumpin sumpin we are working to figure out.

Rar

Love the picture Raider. Looks like the Fuzz has won Mom's heart.

MythOfSisyphus

I don't know either, Raider. It was kind of the same for me. At first I was fearful that my sobriety wouldn't "take" and I'd fall back into the same morass of despair and frustration that I was in before. But as time I went I started to see the "big picture" a lot more clearly. Maybe you just need to get a little time/distance in to gain perspective.

Hawkeye13

Hi Raider;

I dunno either but the same thing happened to me.
Things that would have absolutely sent me to the bottle once don't even cause
a twitch in my drinking arm these days.

I'm just grateful for it, and it gets stronger as time goes on,
but I think the Fuzz is surely helping oil the waters with the family. . .

Hope things are fine with your Dad.
Picture is fantastic. You should get a nice copy made, buy a frame, and
give it to your Mom before you go

Pondlady

I'm fine going anywhere now without wanting to drink, but it's been about two years. I was super careful for a long time.

Adorable picture Thanks for sharing with us!

EJ43

I love that cat, he should become the official mascot of SR!

GotGrace

Glad you are doing well, regardless of why, Raider!

Lenina

raider,

I'm so happy for you! I had that same philosophic shift, some might call it a spiritual awakening, but I was done. stick the fork in it and all.

I wish I knew how to explain it. still, I routinely bag out of events when I know there's going to be excessively drinking, but now it's more about a lack of interest in hanging around drunks than it is fear of wanting to drink myself.

I think maybe having a better idea of the Addictive Voice helps. recognizing I had no reason to drink, only excuses. Does that make sense?

so happy for you. My family was drama central too. Good job on persevering!

Love from Lenina

alphaomega

I. Need. A. Fuzz.

CodeJob

Hope your Dad is A OK following the procedure. Hugs Raider. Maybe that shift in thinking is Grace. This is on my perfume box from Philosophy.

“how you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. and so it is with life, which for many of us becomes one big gigantic test followed by one big gigantic lesson. in the end, it all comes down to one word. grace. it’s how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, the darkness and the light.”

MariahGayle

I wouldn't question where the urge went anymore than I would question where fuzz's fuzz is

Gilmer

Love the Fuzz! Glad your visit is going so well, Raider!

Hope your dad is fine.

It used to infuriate me at restaurants that the menu was always deliberately place drink-side up when I got to the table. Nowadays i just flip it over without any rancor. What is, is, and it's no longer a big deal to me. Maybe in a few months I've matured!