This is weird
This is weird
I'm staying in the city right now - last night and tonight. I'm staying at my parents old house by myself. I am over 6 months sober.
Today, I met my friends for dinner. We had a nice time and it was really good to see them. One of them went home after to do some work. She has a good job. I'm still job hunting. Another had to meet her husband.
I decided to go to the cinema by myself. I walked there by myself. I went to see "Bad Neighbor". I have no comment to make about the movie except that Zach Efron looks well
It feels odd, just me on my own. No vodka in a diet coke bottle in my bag. No wine waiting for me at the house. No stopping by a pub for a few sneaky ones before and after. Just me being "normal"and doing regular things: going to the cinema and stopping off for fries on the way home.
My parents didn't seem to mind me being on my own as long as I stay in contact and answer the phone. Maybe they are beginning to trust me a little.
I am heading home now to read my book and have herbal tea.
I don't need alcohol any more. I am just being me. And it's good. No smokescreen. No hiding.
I feel content tonight. It's relaxing. No panic buying of gum, toothbrushes or mouthwash. I feel free and content.
No, I am not where I want to be but I am closer then I was last November.
Today, I met my friends for dinner. We had a nice time and it was really good to see them. One of them went home after to do some work. She has a good job. I'm still job hunting. Another had to meet her husband.
I decided to go to the cinema by myself. I walked there by myself. I went to see "Bad Neighbor". I have no comment to make about the movie except that Zach Efron looks well
It feels odd, just me on my own. No vodka in a diet coke bottle in my bag. No wine waiting for me at the house. No stopping by a pub for a few sneaky ones before and after. Just me being "normal"and doing regular things: going to the cinema and stopping off for fries on the way home.
My parents didn't seem to mind me being on my own as long as I stay in contact and answer the phone. Maybe they are beginning to trust me a little.
I am heading home now to read my book and have herbal tea.
I don't need alcohol any more. I am just being me. And it's good. No smokescreen. No hiding.
I feel content tonight. It's relaxing. No panic buying of gum, toothbrushes or mouthwash. I feel free and content.
No, I am not where I want to be but I am closer then I was last November.
Fantastic on sober night out alone. Once we sober up we realize life without alcohol can be great. We also realize how much effort it took to be a drunk. It is a wonderful day when that monkey is off you back
Wow, that description regarding vodka in a concealed bottle, anxiety of buying gum and mouthwash really hit the bullseye here. I'd conceal it in a spring water bottle straight.
Besides, vodka is odorless, right? HAHAHA!
I'm very happy for you. You are amazing and inspirational!
Enjoy being your normal self!
Besides, vodka is odorless, right? HAHAHA!
I'm very happy for you. You are amazing and inspirational!
Enjoy being your normal self!
It's amazing all the craziness and drama we would put ourselves through just to feed the disease (mouthwash, gum, sneaking a few on the way home, etc.)
I hope the contentment continues to last!
I hope the contentment continues to last!
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